Open Season On My Heart

I speak of a certain love

Somebody hear me out
I have searched endless
To find that perfect love
That doesn’t hurt,
That doesn’t pain
A love that never disappoints
That is always pleasant
I have sought counsel from the wise
From the philosophers and realists
I have found not that which I look for

…still I speak of a certain love

I speak of emotions, feelings
A craving that never lets me be
A desire burning from my soul
Blank stares into space
I listen to the wind, and the waves
The winds blow me dust
And the waves crush upon my hopes
…and I’m left still deluded,

Still I speak of a certain elusive love.

spice.scripts2010

Beguiled

Crazy as it may seem, I like you,
Many things cross my mind
Many I’d rather not talk about
Before I come out, maybe I should wait
Though my mind is racing fast, thoughts of you
Tonight it’s different, somehow
There’s something about the night sky
Igniting my attraction to you
We talk of the moon and the stars
Our inner selves reaching out
A looming feeling rather ignored

Our pasts haven’t been kind to us
A silent listener you are, a comfort
Many times we talk light heartedly
The laughter and giggles,
a welcomed fresh breath of air
And this rather seems a good thing
Silence at times creeps in between us
A moment I get to think of you, miss you

A new promise, beautiful times call out
Because you are, now I hear the sound of the ocean
I feel the caressing morning breeze
I sing to the sweet music all around me
I’m even convinced the stars shine for me
When it all seemed like it didn’t matter
Now nothing else matters much

I long to hear your voice over my end
Feel the smile you hide behind the phone
I imagine all these pleasant things about you
I see that need in your eyes, I have it too
I feel your kind nature, your sincerity in our converse
But all this is just me; this is how I conceive it

If anything ever changes, for better or worse
Know this as my humble reflection
A desire to acknowledge the feelings you provoke in me
Every time I hear, see or think of you
There’s a flame that is lighting up more and more inside of me..
If need be, that before it’s an inferno, allow me to kill it down…
For now it won’t burn as bad, it won’t hurt as much


“…to appreciate the full beauty of a flower,
we have to be there when it’s forming from a bud…
For then when it’s withering out,
its beauty is still forever etched in our minds…”
_paul mogaka


[let it be known i said this]

don't say it

no don't say it
hold it in one more night
have one last performance
lie to me one last time
have this final meal with me
tell me you enjoy this
but just don't say it tonight

tonight is perfect
beautiful night, slow music
candle lights sparkling through wine
you look amazing, i compliment you
but please hide your eyes
hold back that fake smile
its just one more night with you
that's my final request of you
just don't say it tonight

i know you're leaving me for him
just don't say it....
tell me i atleast made you laugh
that at some point you honestly thought of me
at some point i was that only one for you
let tonight be perfect, calm
let the angels pay sad audience to your final act
you would've told me earlier,
but just not tonight

i won't hold you, nor touch you
i loved kissing you, but not tonight
don't even speak, just listen to me this once
i loved you, i really did love you
a part of me still does to this point

make tonight your grand act,
make it all believable, just like you always do
make it a lasting memory
i have lived a lie with you
though it all hurts finding out
i enjoyed every bit of your lies

so if you have to say goodbye
just don't say it tonight
i could handle your lies unknowingly
but this is one truth from you..,
...that my heart can't take..

stay with me just one more night, tonight.

fading away

illusion, state of make belief
falsehood, words to deceive
an illusion to me you were
a mirage, so near but yet so far
time barely faded away
soon t'was your back fading away
go on, just walk on away
walk on, and don't look back this way
dumb to echoes, numb to karma
when you come around, i won't be waiting
rocking back and forth, forth and back
stocking lies in your mouth, conscience you lack
as ghostly you came, same way you left
it feels like a fraction of time you were here,
enough to make any significance, t'was never clear
"...goodbye...", your words so clear
go on, just walk on away
walk on, and don't look back this way


spice.scripts 2010

a night in NOVEMBER

wipe away your reminiscence of us;
the memories of our love unison,
kill the hopes you harbor,
of us ever being in love again.
destroy everything we created,
that always was the fire burning in us!

i no longer exist to you,
i’m but just a dust particle in a sand storm,
sand storm that is our love life,so far gone
wake up, it’s not a dream anymore
this is the nightmare we crafted…
to understand the person i’ve become,
disdained and dejected to love again!

you reach out your hand that I won’t catch,
chasing shadows in the name of lost love,
this is what you receive, what you deserve
i’m leaving to a far off place
deep within the depths of my heart to find me
one thing that remains…you won’t be there

Let loose off the grip on my heart,
stupid I was…to let loose to you…
but it was the finest moment’
…back when i lost control with you.
we loved so much that we suffocated us
no longer will I write out of your inspiration
won’t run to you with my highs and lows
you never took me in with all my flaws
this is the last bit of memory I’ll create of you
for tonight I walk towards the rainbow….
for the colors of our love have long faded.


spice.scripts 2010

Free Fall

your name resounds in my head
every time we talked late into the night
the fantasies we created within our words
reality never felt so tangible

i wish to gaze upon your beauty
to hold your hand,and look into your eyes
you make it so easy for me to like you
i feel more of myself in your world
i sit here looking at your picture

picturing the smile out of those lips
imagining how you'll sound when i make you laugh
wishing that it was no longer about thoughts

i close my eyes to see you in my world
i want this more than ever,..to have you close by me
i feel the distance more than the miles in between
i wanna fly away from this loneliness
to come to you...

i just want to fly up and away..
..to fall harder for you


spice.scripts2010 (c) 

No Other Touch

think of me when you're alone,
when you're cold and need to be held,
at night in your sleep...
let me be that person in your dreams to keep
let your heart beat for me
i want that too when you think of me..
when you read from me, hear from me.
..i wanna be all you think of
till you can feel my touch,
see the need in my eyes and search..
when we finally let open our hearts to each other
submit to my touch, my kiss and all i have offer
..hold the belief that we'll breathe the same air someday,
and we wont have to imagine no more,
but realize our feelings and emotions together
my lips are dry..ever since you last kissed them
how i wish we could have that moment again
sink those claws into my skin with elated pleasure
its difficult not to miss you..
i hope you miss me too
you're calling to me, i might be delusional but i hear it..
i hope you hear me too,
you're the only one who can take this feeling away,
no other touch will do
you've hammered it so deep..
i can't take the heat..i'm burning up for you
you should feel my heart beat right now
i wanna loosen and let myself go
let myself fall freely into your charm..your demeanour
my twinkle star, your glare brightens me all day..like a kid in neon lights
up above the sky so high,
you're that diamond in my sky..

spice.collabo2010 (c)

Close By Me

let's chase after this love that's elusive to us,
you're the strength i need to believe in it,
carry me upon the desires of your heart,
prepare me a soft place to land at the end of my fall,
nourish my heart from the depths of your soul,
speak to me through the touch of your hand..the look in your eyes,
show me what love is in you..paint it with the bright colors of your smile,
i feel it all over me..i'm taken captive of your innocent demeanour,
a gem among ladies..you beam through as the bright moon among twinkling stars,
i desire and think of no other but you..though you're far what i feel is true,
in my mind you rule supreme..every thought is you,
every moment special moment is a moment i wanna share with you,
a fountain flows inside of me..,but it alone cannot quench my thirst for you,
i need you here with me...


spice.scripts2010(c)

Do It Again

kiss me from my neck down my chest,
capture the moment one more time,
do it like you did it before,
make me feel again...

on that last night that we were together,
you held me so close to you,
your arms around me made me feel protected,
it was an awesome feeling.

i lay on your chest as you gently brushed my braids with your fingers,
soft movement down my back...you took me as your own,
a feeling i didn't want to lose...

...your kisses on my breasts,
as your touch felt my every curve,
sending tingling sensations round the tips of my nipples..
...pull back the memories to be real one more time,
make the loving words you said to me sound real again,
that moment when our thoughts were like glass...honest and true.

i miss you every fraction of time you are away,
your gentle kisses..your soft lips on mine.

now the night calls..when silence settles in,
and thoughts echo in my mind..
i wish you were here,
...to kiss me from my neck down my chest,
to capture the moment one more time,
do it like you did it before,
make me feel again....


spice.scripts2010 (c)

Distance In Between

the night was young and the winds were cold,
we took a walk beneath the shining stars and the clear night sky.
we let ourselves go to the power of the moon light,
experiencing our feelings in their natural splendour,
...but was it just a passing fancy?
However real it felt,how are we going to make it last.?

the night was young and the winds were cold,
i hugged you close to me..to keep you warm,
thoughts in my mind sent me to the imminent dim future,
i will miss seeing your face..feeling you near me,
when i leave to a far away city,
will you still believe in us?
This is where we are,is it time for goodbye?

our attraction was young and the past had grown cold,
nervous in your presence for it's time to leave,
right back here with you is where i wanna be.
a kiss on your lips and a sigh oh so softly,
..a look into your eyes and that's where you capture me.
Does my admiration scare you so much?
..this is not an obsession,just mad affection...

spice.scripts 2010(c)

Un-Commissioned Hurt

what is it about love that turns a person into a fool?
that would make a humble being be so cruel,
no emotions after a heartbreak, despise burns up as hot fuel,
all get served the epidemic like it's a universal good.

fools appear loomed into manipulation, use and abuse,
cruelty is instigated on them, a love they willingly had to choose,
fueling up more hatred that will ultimately lead to a burnt out fuse,
rules were never laid down, to play out emotions to a truce.

abuse rules unmerited companionships founded on lust,
choosing the love masked with eros, hard to build on trust,
fuse two un-matched hearts..and no sparks of union will combust,
truce, par, evenly matched...will be terms rare as cosmic dust.

what is it about love that has us immersed in this pain?
that would still have me glued to you like a regular shot of cocaine?
no hope to celebrate the future, it all seems to be in vain,
all seems destined, in a different domain...i'll find love again.

spice.archives 2010

All Is Vanity Without You

Trying to hold back my tears,
But my eyes can’t shut tight enough,
…Tight enough not to see you walk away.
And it hurts, thought I should say,
My heart is crushing at your feet,
…Begging you, pleading with you to stay.

You say you love me no more,
You say goodbye and that you have to go,
My angel, why do you dessert this dream,
Why rob me off such a heavenly token?
I’m downcast, beaten and broken,
Isn’t it clear how much I need you,
…how much I love you?

My heart throbs amongst thorns,
Every beat is a painful prick of piercing thorns,
Redemption better dwells on a bed of fiery coals,
I’m falling apart, leaning back up against crumbling walls,
You took me in and we promised us forever,
…we’ve been through so much together..,
Why do you now turn away from me?

I’m lying on rocky ground suffocated,
My face down to the dirt feeling rejected,
My heart defiled and disrespected,
Sad days shall later be gone,
And my tears shall stop flowing,
But my love will never stop showing!
I can’t let you go, that you should know…
What’s this life without your touch?
For your laugh, your smile…forever I can search,
And that assuring hug…I can find none with such.

How can I show you what you mean to me?
You mean my life to me;
Everything is nothing without you,
I will love you with my last breath;
Give my all to hold on to you…
I will bruise and break myself fighting fate,
Just to show it I won’t let you go.

Spice.scrolls2010 ©

A Kiss So Passionate

A kiss so passionate!,

K- knocks me off my every senses,
I- immensely takes over my defenses.
S- spontaneity jerks me into life,
S- stolen kisses gear up inner high sex drives,

S- saturating the aura with lustful aroma,
O- orgasmic pulses nerving through dilated veins,

P- pouncing on mild thoughts suggestive of intimacy,
A- andante progression to build up the ecstasy,
S- satiate my lips into a seasoned, juicy fruity feel..,
S- sublime movement of the tongues to heighten the zeal
I- infuse our savory juices my urge to unseal
O- overwhelm my resistance my craving to reveal…
N- nibble across the soft flesh of the lower lip
A- aptly read my reaction intent to sink dip,
T- towards the depths converging centrally to your hips,
E- eventually ease an egoistic earnest erection into emulsion.¬¬


spice.sentiments 2010 ©

Prodigal Hearts

what killed us, so young in love,
what mistakes did we make,
what happened, can we live in the flip side,
what did we do to let it all ensue,
what destroyed our blossoming fairy tale?

if i drop everything, will you reconsider,
if only you could let go off your attitude and concur,
if we tried a little harder..however you would prefer,
if we can be lifeless to the ghosts of doubt pulling us under,
if it means anything to you...please hear me out!

what if i tell you i still love you,
what if i ignored all others just to be with you,
what if I received a little more trust from you,
what if things were different between me and you,
what if this day hadn’t brought me you?

this has got to mean something,
we have a second chance with us,
let's make this the beginning of us,
kill the past and end all the fighting,
give this our best with no more hurting,
steer this story to a fairy tale ending,
the story of our love.


spice.scripts 2010 ©

Echoes

A thousand miles away
Just a thought close to me
You dwell in my being so alive
But you’re a thousand miles away

Love don’t come easy
Separated and alone
Cold nights amidst burning desires
Missing your smile in the morning sun

Minutes, hours, days turn into years
No other shoulder will take my tears
Memories are growing old and tired
Ripe time the winds brought you home

I hear your voice from the birds among swaying trees
Your eyes in the shinning stars in the night sky
I smell your scent in the breeze every cold morning
I feel your foot steps across the thought paths of my mind
…and I hear my heart call out to yours saying, ‘I miss you’!


spice.lyricist2010 ©

...wE sImPlY ArE

not because i am, that you are
not because you are, that i am
we simply are, cause we both feel.

i cant ignore, i still can't be sure
come to the fore, out of your closure
loneliness grips us as cold in equal measure
nudeness of our thoughts out on exposure

you warm me with your kind words
i want you...to be with you, to hold you
i want to do this right..i'm not sure how
you warn me that love sometimes hurts
i wish love didn't have to hurt sometimes
i wished that it could last forever
forever never came...love never lasted

i'm afraid..afraid to wish again
believe again, love or feel again
teach me, show me how to love you
hold me, take my hand and guide me
tell me it's going to be okay,
stay with me...in case its not okay..
cause i never want to lose you.

spice.scripts 2010 (c)

my loss

once a settler of your heart
once a peddler of your hurt

once the source of your happiness
once the scorch of your sadness

did my best to push you away
hid my taste to spit you away

deep inside of me, i needed you
your love..that's all i needed
only your love can make me whole.

my life I've lived gray in denial
my lies I've told to stay in survival
my eyes I've closed to shy away in a spiral

shy away from what i need most
stay away from the person who loves me most
preying on passing pleasures molded in lust
spraying time and emotions that wont last

all is over now...here i am
deep in my thoughts searching, for calm
all is over now...here i come
deep in my soul...i've brewed a storm

i dont deserve your love,
i should've let go of all i have,
to have you with me in my life,

i've been a fool,
i've been so cruel,
used you as a tool,
i'm paying for all that in full.

what will it take...to feel real love again.

spice.scripts 2010

Deuces Rmx ft. Spice [the missing verse]

The new girl that I’m wit,
She treats me right
You getting fake n old with ol this blame shit
You’re yesterday’s paper, torn page sheet!
‘…I’m saying Bye Bye…’ I’m calling this Deuces,
I’m the only one, no many spices
Girl you’ll find no other in this species
Know me as the Sapien ripping your heart in slices
You hurt me girl, I was your boo
I loved you girl, so I’ll hurt you too
Shoo, flap away like a shamed bird,
You plucked my feathers n put me down bad,
Now see how I dig up your dirt!
I’m off to a new start, new love and fulfilling trust
Call me Spice; I’m always up bringing a new taste
You should see her, still chaste…after the first night
When you gave it up so easily…your first night,
Didn’t you think it would also end up so easily…yeah that’s right!
I bet you didn’t see this coming on,
‘Should’ve known who was cheating too’...Rayvon
Save your useless pride, move on…
Deuces!

spring back

thought losing you would destroy me
thought letting you go would consume me
thought you were that one to complete me
....i was right
i'm utterly ruined without you in my life
i'm recurrently consumed by lies all my life
i'm imperfect without a girl like you in my life

didn't i love you enough,
or is love never enough?

i didn't want to be a shoulder you only cry on,
my shoulder was for you to also hold on.
you let go and went back to him,
you apologized and left me for him.
he made you shed your tears enough times,
you made him feed off your fears enough times.

me and you,
those days now feel like a mistake..
a bitter pill i can't take,
wish you knew how it all feels like,
it felt real, never crossed me to be fake..
being a spring back for you is a torturing heartache,
that, i have to live with....

spice.scripts2010

never was, now is

i get lost in my own world
shut out all else, alone
say nothing, think of everything
listen to my thoughts
at times they speak,
at times they're silent,
just like i am, silent.

is this how love wants it,
how long will we be silent,
when is this ending,
our love is still pending,
pride has encroached us,
this tide will drown us..,
silence lives among the dead,
has our love died?

breathe life into this heart,
hearken unto my soul's plight,
dreams haunt me in the night,
memories of the pain i caused you,
i bleed from regrett, i'm sorry..

forgive me if you might,
surpress the hatred...,the hurt,
free me..free you...free us.

deserving nothing from you,
i never did deserve anything,
if i never realised i needed you,
this moment you hold my life,
if this slightly sounds as to be untrue,
this is what i deserve out of life.

here i am.., alone, broken
here we are..,forgone, forsaken
hear my plea.., awaken
i killed us, but i'm still dying,
in this wilderness..i created.

spice.scripts2010(c)

waiting for you

thought my tears would make you stay,
you turned your back on me and left anyway.
these tears that i shed you see..
all the mean words that you said to me..
and the lies that you fed to me,

i let it all go
cause now i can show
how much i need you so

my feelings haven't changed
i just feel a little short-changed
if this makes you see
that i still love you,
and i want you to be with me..,
then i hope you'll love me too.

spice.scripts2010

Phoenix Love

can't lie to myself that you're lonely,
just cause we're together no more,
you're beautiful in every way,pretty and lovely,
the world of love is big for you to explore.

men as bees hover around you as honey,
offering you love at heart, and in money,
i bet your life is all rosy and sunny,
you'll be offending the heavens for you to be lonely.

in your new busy world, do i still exist?
do you think of me...even if your thoughts insist?
my pen in hand, i'm seated here on this seat..,
writing a poem about you..in me you exist.

why, why did you abandon us in an instance?
you just had to have a little patience..,
was it cause my love didn't seem deep enough?
or my pocket indeed wasn't deep enough?

i can't lie to myself that you miss me,
but i can be sure that, not only do i miss you..,
i still love you.

this love i feel for you, will bring you back.

spice.scripts2010

..about you

i think of you tonight,

you're the reason i write,

you're the reason for my delight,

as my thoughts bring you in sight.



distant love growing near,

instant sparks you ignite dear,

brilliant display of a lighted chandelier,

reminiscent of my love so sincere.



my inspiration, i fetch from your pool,

my admiration, in my heart you rule,

my seduction, i drink desire from your pool,

my addiction, i am a junky of your love capsule.



baby, though you're away from me

i thought maybe, you should know this from me

see lately, nothing else around moves me,

plant this love tree, come grow and age with me.



i'm happy with you, i'm happy like this

i feel brand new, i feel my inner peace

as the skies stay blue, you're the one thing i miss

our love stays true, and forever it foresees.



signed: lyricist

spice.scripts2010

to my special friend

To my special friend,
I miss you, like really miss you.
You're such a breath of fresh air
...my eyes glow and lips broaden with a smile whenever i talk to you.
I really love that about you...really do.
Just thought i'd tell you that,
to just appreciate you.
I'm glad i met you..

spice.appreciations 2010

Night Romance

cute blush,
instant crush,
blood rush;
her knees get weak.

admiring stare,
beautiful hair,
sexy wear;
his perfect kinda chic.

he waves; she caves
she smiles; attraction piles

swallows his pride,
takes a stride,
now by her side,
the anxiety he can't hide.

she can't block his charm,
warning bells sound the alarm,
but she sees no harm,
and kindly takes to his arm.

lingering stolen kiss,
no she can't miss this,
this he can't dismiss...

this ain't right,
this they cannot fight,
it'll only be one night,
so let the fireworks ignite,
and senses excite,
we only got tonight.

spice.scripts 2010

Double Shot [Friend and More]

do you think of me often,
feel like it's a pull into an emotional den?
do you miss me sometimes,
in ways more than you think you should?
this one fact i've come to gather,
be it what we talk about when we're together..,
be it i'm beat up and feeling blue..,
it matters less when i'm here talking to you.
you've awakened emotions that were long hidden,
jerking my heartbeat feeling alive in myself again.
my restrained feelings always becoming manifest in your presence,
as gold shines majestically bright in the sun's rays' essence.
my fingers tremble as they feel your lips on this picture,
i long for one sweet kiss, to quench my burning thirst forever.
friend, answer me this one question,
are you crazy enough for this kind of affection?
let us run ahead of time, be one step ahead,
and let fate play catch-up to our spontaneity,
at the end of it all, whether we find us or not,
you still remain to be my deepest desire

spice.revelations 2010