my loss

once a settler of your heart
once a peddler of your hurt

once the source of your happiness
once the scorch of your sadness

did my best to push you away
hid my taste to spit you away

deep inside of me, i needed you
your love..that's all i needed
only your love can make me whole.

my life I've lived gray in denial
my lies I've told to stay in survival
my eyes I've closed to shy away in a spiral

shy away from what i need most
stay away from the person who loves me most
preying on passing pleasures molded in lust
spraying time and emotions that wont last

all is over now...here i am
deep in my thoughts searching, for calm
all is over now...here i come
deep in my soul...i've brewed a storm

i dont deserve your love,
i should've let go of all i have,
to have you with me in my life,

i've been a fool,
i've been so cruel,
used you as a tool,
i'm paying for all that in full.

what will it take...to feel real love again.

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Deuces Rmx ft. Spice [the missing verse]

The new girl that I’m wit,
She treats me right
You getting fake n old with ol this blame shit
You’re yesterday’s paper, torn page sheet!
‘…I’m saying Bye Bye…’ I’m calling this Deuces,
I’m the only one, no many spices
Girl you’ll find no other in this species
Know me as the Sapien ripping your heart in slices
You hurt me girl, I was your boo
I loved you girl, so I’ll hurt you too
Shoo, flap away like a shamed bird,
You plucked my feathers n put me down bad,
Now see how I dig up your dirt!
I’m off to a new start, new love and fulfilling trust
Call me Spice; I’m always up bringing a new taste
You should see her, still chaste…after the first night
When you gave it up so easily…your first night,
Didn’t you think it would also end up so easily…yeah that’s right!
I bet you didn’t see this coming on,
‘Should’ve known who was cheating too’...Rayvon
Save your useless pride, move on…
Deuces!

spring back

thought losing you would destroy me
thought letting you go would consume me
thought you were that one to complete me
....i was right
i'm utterly ruined without you in my life
i'm recurrently consumed by lies all my life
i'm imperfect without a girl like you in my life

didn't i love you enough,
or is love never enough?

i didn't want to be a shoulder you only cry on,
my shoulder was for you to also hold on.
you let go and went back to him,
you apologized and left me for him.
he made you shed your tears enough times,
you made him feed off your fears enough times.

me and you,
those days now feel like a mistake..
a bitter pill i can't take,
wish you knew how it all feels like,
it felt real, never crossed me to be fake..
being a spring back for you is a torturing heartache,
that, i have to live with....

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never was, now is

i get lost in my own world
shut out all else, alone
say nothing, think of everything
listen to my thoughts
at times they speak,
at times they're silent,
just like i am, silent.

is this how love wants it,
how long will we be silent,
when is this ending,
our love is still pending,
pride has encroached us,
this tide will drown us..,
silence lives among the dead,
has our love died?

breathe life into this heart,
hearken unto my soul's plight,
dreams haunt me in the night,
memories of the pain i caused you,
i bleed from regrett, i'm sorry..

forgive me if you might,
surpress the hatred...,the hurt,
free me..free you...free us.

deserving nothing from you,
i never did deserve anything,
if i never realised i needed you,
this moment you hold my life,
if this slightly sounds as to be untrue,
this is what i deserve out of life.

here i am.., alone, broken
here we are..,forgone, forsaken
hear my plea.., awaken
i killed us, but i'm still dying,
in this wilderness..i created.

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waiting for you

thought my tears would make you stay,
you turned your back on me and left anyway.
these tears that i shed you see..
all the mean words that you said to me..
and the lies that you fed to me,

i let it all go
cause now i can show
how much i need you so

my feelings haven't changed
i just feel a little short-changed
if this makes you see
that i still love you,
and i want you to be with me..,
then i hope you'll love me too.

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Phoenix Love

can't lie to myself that you're lonely,
just cause we're together no more,
you're beautiful in every way,pretty and lovely,
the world of love is big for you to explore.

men as bees hover around you as honey,
offering you love at heart, and in money,
i bet your life is all rosy and sunny,
you'll be offending the heavens for you to be lonely.

in your new busy world, do i still exist?
do you think of me...even if your thoughts insist?
my pen in hand, i'm seated here on this seat..,
writing a poem about you..in me you exist.

why, why did you abandon us in an instance?
you just had to have a little patience..,
was it cause my love didn't seem deep enough?
or my pocket indeed wasn't deep enough?

i can't lie to myself that you miss me,
but i can be sure that, not only do i miss you..,
i still love you.

this love i feel for you, will bring you back.

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..about you

i think of you tonight,

you're the reason i write,

you're the reason for my delight,

as my thoughts bring you in sight.



distant love growing near,

instant sparks you ignite dear,

brilliant display of a lighted chandelier,

reminiscent of my love so sincere.



my inspiration, i fetch from your pool,

my admiration, in my heart you rule,

my seduction, i drink desire from your pool,

my addiction, i am a junky of your love capsule.



baby, though you're away from me

i thought maybe, you should know this from me

see lately, nothing else around moves me,

plant this love tree, come grow and age with me.



i'm happy with you, i'm happy like this

i feel brand new, i feel my inner peace

as the skies stay blue, you're the one thing i miss

our love stays true, and forever it foresees.



signed: lyricist

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