Open Season On My Heart

I speak of a certain love

Somebody hear me out
I have searched endless
To find that perfect love
That doesn’t hurt,
That doesn’t pain
A love that never disappoints
That is always pleasant
I have sought counsel from the wise
From the philosophers and realists
I have found not that which I look for

…still I speak of a certain love

I speak of emotions, feelings
A craving that never lets me be
A desire burning from my soul
Blank stares into space
I listen to the wind, and the waves
The winds blow me dust
And the waves crush upon my hopes
…and I’m left still deluded,

Still I speak of a certain elusive love.

spice.scripts2010

Beguiled

Crazy as it may seem, I like you,
Many things cross my mind
Many I’d rather not talk about
Before I come out, maybe I should wait
Though my mind is racing fast, thoughts of you
Tonight it’s different, somehow
There’s something about the night sky
Igniting my attraction to you
We talk of the moon and the stars
Our inner selves reaching out
A looming feeling rather ignored

Our pasts haven’t been kind to us
A silent listener you are, a comfort
Many times we talk light heartedly
The laughter and giggles,
a welcomed fresh breath of air
And this rather seems a good thing
Silence at times creeps in between us
A moment I get to think of you, miss you

A new promise, beautiful times call out
Because you are, now I hear the sound of the ocean
I feel the caressing morning breeze
I sing to the sweet music all around me
I’m even convinced the stars shine for me
When it all seemed like it didn’t matter
Now nothing else matters much

I long to hear your voice over my end
Feel the smile you hide behind the phone
I imagine all these pleasant things about you
I see that need in your eyes, I have it too
I feel your kind nature, your sincerity in our converse
But all this is just me; this is how I conceive it

If anything ever changes, for better or worse
Know this as my humble reflection
A desire to acknowledge the feelings you provoke in me
Every time I hear, see or think of you
There’s a flame that is lighting up more and more inside of me..
If need be, that before it’s an inferno, allow me to kill it down…
For now it won’t burn as bad, it won’t hurt as much


“…to appreciate the full beauty of a flower,
we have to be there when it’s forming from a bud…
For then when it’s withering out,
its beauty is still forever etched in our minds…”
_paul mogaka


[let it be known i said this]

don't say it

no don't say it
hold it in one more night
have one last performance
lie to me one last time
have this final meal with me
tell me you enjoy this
but just don't say it tonight

tonight is perfect
beautiful night, slow music
candle lights sparkling through wine
you look amazing, i compliment you
but please hide your eyes
hold back that fake smile
its just one more night with you
that's my final request of you
just don't say it tonight

i know you're leaving me for him
just don't say it....
tell me i atleast made you laugh
that at some point you honestly thought of me
at some point i was that only one for you
let tonight be perfect, calm
let the angels pay sad audience to your final act
you would've told me earlier,
but just not tonight

i won't hold you, nor touch you
i loved kissing you, but not tonight
don't even speak, just listen to me this once
i loved you, i really did love you
a part of me still does to this point

make tonight your grand act,
make it all believable, just like you always do
make it a lasting memory
i have lived a lie with you
though it all hurts finding out
i enjoyed every bit of your lies

so if you have to say goodbye
just don't say it tonight
i could handle your lies unknowingly
but this is one truth from you..,
...that my heart can't take..

stay with me just one more night, tonight.

fading away

illusion, state of make belief
falsehood, words to deceive
an illusion to me you were
a mirage, so near but yet so far
time barely faded away
soon t'was your back fading away
go on, just walk on away
walk on, and don't look back this way
dumb to echoes, numb to karma
when you come around, i won't be waiting
rocking back and forth, forth and back
stocking lies in your mouth, conscience you lack
as ghostly you came, same way you left
it feels like a fraction of time you were here,
enough to make any significance, t'was never clear
"...goodbye...", your words so clear
go on, just walk on away
walk on, and don't look back this way


spice.scripts 2010