sour herbs, fine medicine | spice

i won't be bitter,
i won't be sad...
for a flower fell,
to bring forth another.

broke my heart,
to mend another,
love cycle of hurt,
most tis to gather.

my pain is not less painful,
neither my heart less cold and lonely,
i hate to remember why you left,
the thorns still pierce like twas yesterday.

i remind myself..
i won't be bitter,
i won't be sad,
for a flower fell,
to bring forth another.

spice.lamentations 2010

till we meet someone else... | spice

this point, i attempt to say goodbye,
and not feel bad cause we did try.
no need to cry.. i'll try be firm.
seeing how far we've come,
all we've been through.. quarrels and calm.
our paths initially met,
now they separate.
i wish you luck, through and through..
i can't have you back, neither can you..
we both head out to our golden horizons,
we both clearly have our reasons,
we need to settle in our personal comfort zones.
the same sun, stars and the moon..,
will shine for us...and we'll meet in the skies, soon.
this is no break-up letter,
neither is it goodbye, just a 'meet you later'
we both head out for something better,
a different shoulder..a better shelter,
so finally..
we can rest,
no more drama,
more tranquility... serenity...

spice.scripts2010

life in shades of grey | spice

am at a point of breaking down
my emotions mocked
my thoughts blocked
am at a point of sinking to drown

at this point i feel alone and deserted
my cries echo into empty valleys
my hands indulge in frantic help displays
at this point i feel torn and unwanted

....at this point i am caged and damaged

don't know who or what to turn to
does anyone even take this as being true
my outside is calm and collected
my inside is full of chaos, a turmoil undetected
it's no longer my genuine smiles
it's all in my face, unnarrated tales.
who will see past this rough tough exterior
..and comfort my fragile and soft but troubled interior.?
someone to shine a light in my darkness
to bring rain in this dryness
will someone see, feel or hear me out someday?
will someone just maybe, just teach me how to pray?

spice.scripts 2010

time has run out [her story - scroll two] | spice

i thought i'd believe in you,
but you've given so little to hold on to.
I no longer know what to expect,
all i know is that i have a heart to protect.
i only manage to get you out of my mind,
not out of my heart, there you're confined.
you captured me with your sweet words,
i let myself go before you, like a free bird.
you got me locked up in the dungeons of your heart,
it gets cold as days go by, why did you depart?
i can't get out; this isn't how i saw it.
you were full of allure and promise,
it's all faded away so soon... wish i had seen this.
i have to let you go, and allow myself to grow,
let me find myself again...before i sink down below.
i want to glow in my light,
like a fire fly through the dark of night,
till i land in a glass jar, and bring delight..,
..to a lonely heart,
..that's watching out for shooting stars in the night sky.
i want to feel alive.., want to breathe again,
laugh, smile and love again,
and this is where i begin,
....my prelude to the greatest story of my life.

spice.scripts 2010

love on borrowed time [his story - scroll one]| spice

feels like he's loving you better than i am,
the affection you speak of, the romance and the charm,
i don't give you much of it, that troubles my calm.,
barely does it feel right to me..it crushes my conscience.

its getting obvious you're headed his way,
i didn't think of it as to end today,not in this way.

let love take you an extra mile with me,
i ask for more time, then we can eventually be..,
i want you with me and not her; you're what's good for me
selfishly, i feel that i need you both in my life...
but when it's all come crumbling down,
it's you i'd rather be with..you need to trust me.

don't take your love away,
i just need to make this right,
love sometimes is not enough,
but again it's all we crave for.

you're the best girl i can't be with,
what am i to do, or say, to make it all right?
i savored your love, nothing else tastes better.

i need to be with you but i can't,
still, i don't want to let you go.
ghosts of the past haunt me, please stay...
i struggle to break free, i'll make this right...eventually.

spice.scripts 2010

...is it? | spice

some have thought of it as being not normal,
for all i do is paint my love on paper,
some have thought it to be immature,
that i can't keep my act together cause i love you,
some have thought it to be 'not manly'..,
cause MEN aren't too 'emotional'
some have thought it to be foolish and blind sighted,
that all i seem to talk about is you.
some have thought it a waste of time,
that i sit here,shun all...and wait for you

i think of it, as all worthwhile...
the ridicule, the discouragement, the gossip...
it's all worthwhile...

.., what do you think?

spice.freestyle 2010

Not an Obsession; Just Mad Affection | spice

i know i may be spinning out of control,
but please don't tell me to slow down,
it'll be like telling me to suppress my breathing baby,
i now feel more alive than i've ever had,
my heart beats for you,
may i know, does my love scare you?
does it scare you knowing that you're my life now?

i might be saying a lot too much than i should,
i might be giving more than i should a little too early,
i might not know just how else to love you.
would that mean my love is a bit too much for you?
wouldn't you think that i want so much for you to believe that it's true?

know that i give you my all, no holding back.
know that it's not an obsession, just mad affection.

i want to take you into my arms each opportunity i have,
i want to feel your body close to mine,
i want our hearts to beat in tune to each other,
i want our souls to embrace,when we eventually become one.

your smile brings pure joy to me,
my guard crumbles in your presence,
the simple way you hold my hand,
i love to look into your eyes,
the acknowledging look you give me in public,
every word you say hypnotizes me,
i like how your lips move when you talk..,
i could go on and on.,
but i'm scared it could be a little too much too early.

it all comes down to the little things you do,
that's got me spinning crazy about you

spice.scripts 2010

you're my star [twinkle]| spice

i listen to the sound of the waves,
i look at the glare of the evening sun on the vast waters,
the golden sky, the chirp of birds...
it all brings peace to my mind,
it delivers my thoughts to you,
the evening sun sets, and it brings serenity to my heart,
though you're far away,far across oceans..
the stars will shine for us,in the evening sky..
and i'll name one after you, to guide me to sweet slumber each night

spice.freestyle 2010

brighter day [gloom no more] | spice

awaken me to a fresh sunrise,
reawaken my faith; before it dies.
arise...my lonely heart, evade this early demise..,
reprise the disguise of lies; and shun the snake eyes.

swit amor, she crushed my spirit; and my heart lost its beat
she put me in the back seat; as she mingled with the elite..
so much deceit; i accept defeat...i cannot compete
yo te amaba, pero que siempre rompio me corazon [i loved her but she eternally broke my heart]

love died withing me; but i remained alive in love
an angel now watches over me; covers me whole as a glove

indeed the rainbow glows; i'll wake up and dust my clothes
i've finally arose; shedding off my lows..,accepting my flaws

a fresh breath of air, a new beginning
i've found love so rare, in perfect timing
so now i declare, that i got you now my darling
and this i solemnly swear, it's you i'll be loving

waiting on the shooting star | spice

your heart no longer feels like home; inside i'm slowly being torn.
alot has happened since you've been gone; i even can't reach you through your phone,
should've known it'll be this hard,
that the pain will be this bad,
thought you said you'd call,but that was three months ago..
you used to spark me up with a single hello..,
you'd simply make me glow; color my life into a beautiful rainbow.
i probably didn't get a chance to say,
that you make me feel this way,
i assumed you'd stick around longer; and our bond would grow stronger..,
my heart keeps growing fonder; but my hope grows blinder.
heard you found someone new; and here i'm wishing i knew..,
exactly what to do; for i only want to be with you.
how can i calm these feelings that i wrestle with; i don't want our love to be a myth.
i wished a fairy tale upon a shooting star; that we should end in '..happily ever after..'

spice.scripts 2010

get me a life, a new one! | spice

I hate it that i feel this way,
this way,
i don't want to go,
but You, have to go...
maybe i should let you know,
that you're hitting a negative score...
started at ten,
but then,
you're moving down towards zero..
Don't know why i feel so,
i blame experience..
i loved you before beyond sense,
and my heart's gone sore,
experience,experience...i hate you..i hate you so!
What more should i learn from you, mr.experience?
You tell me she'll walk away,and not look my way...like the other did..
You tell me she'll mock me,..like the other did..
you tell me she'll leave,i have to believe...cause the other one did...
you tell me she'll love me..BUT,.."..guard your heart,cause she's so lovely.."
i miss loving naively,..with no care in this world,..with no worry,..no bad memories to bury,..
why did i have to meet you,sir?
You've been proven true to your word...
You've taken me through it all in this world,..
can't help but wish,
an infant i was to all this,...
peace..i need.

spice.classics 2009

To my special friend | spice

To my special friend,
I miss you, like really miss you.
You're such a breath of fresh air
...my eyes glow and lips broaden with a smile whenever i talk to you.
I really love that about you...really do.
Just thought i'd tell you that,
to just appreciate you.
I'm glad i met you..

spice.appreciations 2010

.::untitled 3::. | spice

certainly she loves him, but for how long?
certainly her love flows to his rhythm, in him she can belong.
unfortunately he's drowned in fear, likely to quit on her any minute..,
fortunately she's kept him near, stuck by him so resolute.

he has known no better love; his own is a heart burdened,
a curse bound round his neck,
pulling him down to the ground,a struggle he can't take.

he wants to love her right, be her lover and friend
he wants to survive his fight, but he feels chained and foresees a looming end.

chained to;
a past of barren assurances "..people always leave.." [realities of the past]
a present of indecisiveness "..she's not what he really wants.." [illusions of the present]
a future of assumptions "..gotta put himself together first.." [ambitions of the future]

will she be able to love him past his uncertainties,
see him for his potential and vast possibilities,
will she understand he's just human, help him inspire a belief in himself?
but again, it doesn't worry him...cause people always leave anyway...
..and again maybe she just wasn't the girl for him..she can walk away.,
..on a different view, maybe he should just put his life together first.,
before he's worried that he's actually cursed.

spice.scripts 2010

she killed him | SPICE

she strives in the conflict she ignites,
she revels in his unfailing concern,
she cuts him to see if he'll bleed,
she stabbed him..to see if he has a heart.
...and he died..

..now he rests in peaceful serenity
away from the thorny bed she lay
..now he takes slow easy breathes of air
away from the stuffy room she set,
..set in the confines of her love.
now he lays his head in soft petals,
away from the wedges mounted on her shoulders.
in this new dimension..he lives!
..and he worries,
will she again come after him?

spice.scripts2010_she killed him.

me touch Me by SPICE

inside me is where i want you to be
to feel the grip of my walls on you
the feel of your glide,.. and slide
the only reason my flower was moulded
to fit in place with your rod
to match the strength of your sword


so the days go by, seems like forever
and i'm thinking of you, missing you
and when i'm horny..its unbearable
i want to hold myself..rub myself
you're not with me..
i touch myself in the mirror


other men don't appeal to me,
you only know how to serve it to me,
for the tenderness of your hands
as they reach out into heated darkness
there is where I wait for you
in my moments of ever growing passion
this pleasure i adorn you


warmth escapes me at night..
words fail me to say it right
i sigh everytime i try
i only wish in some cosmic force
that you feel the need i have


spice.scripts2011_i touch myself

una nini?..[what's up with you] By Spice

i can't explain it
sijui nikwambie vipi naumia
we've been talking less by the day
i don't know if you've noticed
we no longer call each other sweet names
mimi mwenyewe kukufikiria skwizi ni kujiumiza
i no longer get that comforting feel
i'm hurting...
Sijui uko na nani wherever you are
siezi fuatilia vitu unafanya, kulindana mi siezi
i've tried trusting you wholly but nimeshindwa
you don't make it easy for me
i'm i too insecure, i'm i taking it too far?
Is it too much to ask for, to hear or read from you daily?
Nakutamani si uongo..but hii maisha unaifanya ikae ngumu
talk to me soonest love..

spice.scripts2011_una ni [what's up with you]

want not By Spice

can't hide it, neither can my face conceal it

i can't fight it, neither can i yield to it

i can't contain it, neither can i forego it

it's one in pain, and another in sweetness

i don't need it, neither can i dispose of it

such is the feeling, when it's so hard to let you go!

spice.scripts2011_want not

marry me, now! by SPICE

i feel it, i feel it with you..
i know it, i know it's all true..
i want it, i want it through you..
i need it, so bad i wish you knew.. ..how bad!

words have been said..
vows have been made..
the past has been shred..
and now we stand in line to wed.

my angel in white..smile so bright
sexy in silk..tonight too in your lingerie
i will hold you so tight, smother you all night..
for this day is our hooray!

i love you, i always will

cross me not by SPICE

i want you to forget me
stop thinking of me
don't feel lucky to have me
cause this ain't real..just like me

'i love you' are just words..
my actions speak..but they say nothing
i want you not to believe everything i say
don't see all i do as concrete to proof
i know what you are..
you're just like me..yes you are

when i play it right, everything turns out wrong
i say this..you hear that
i do this..you see otherwise
now i want me gone..in due time.

who's laughing now..who'll be crying then?
Who's upright now..who'll be crumbling then?
who's getting it their way..and who'll be submitting then?

i feel, i sense, i anticipate
i evaluate, i add it all up..
i conclude.. ..someone is gonna get hurt.

you're my favorite love song | SPICE

you to me are like a constantly playing love song,
you settle my nerves and sooth my soul,
you fill my ears with sweet sound..
you touch the innermost bit of me..
to that point at the deepest end of my heart,
i long to hear you play everyday..to feed off your lyrics,
and when i miss you..i just have to replay the melody in my head,
you stay in my head the whole day,
you curve a constant smile upon my face,
you light sparkles in my eyes..and everything seems so bright..
and tonight i think of you..as my love song..
to soothe me to restful sleep.

lyricist_2011

undying | SPICE

You were there all the time in the shadows..in my mind
Barely out of the reach of my fingers...my touch
But when grief and unhappiness shook me,and felt alone
It was quick to find respite in you...my refuge.

You picked my heart from its prison,
You showed me a way of surviving,
I loved you with all of my being,
And I still do though with pain.

The love that once sustained me,
It’s now making me restless and fearful,
That you wouldn’t forgive and believe me,
If I said you shared none of the blame,

As I wait in the silence to hear from you,

With hazy eyes and darkness battering me blind,
sharp Edges of pain shred my mind,
I will not burn the bridge or walk away,
But I will stay and watch the light fade away..behind me

You might be whole without me,
But I will never be complete without you,
For not only do I want you to be my one love in this life,
But also in the next....

I'm Jealous of your 'Friend' by SPICE

I see how he gazes at you
I know he’s fond of you,
He may perhaps be just a friend to you
To him, you’re the girl he dreams about


You’re his fantasy, an angel in his eyes,
How can you not see, see it in his eyes,
He treats you like a sovereign,
He captures you in places you’ve never seen,
You’re always laughing; he’s like a comic king


You tell me you enjoy your time together,
You call it being friends forever
He’s hunting you down with such flair,
Under the veil of a friend,
Maybe you know it;
Maybe it’s hidden from your heart


I’m your lover but him, your trusted friend,
I know you love me, forever till the end
On that assurance i totally depend…
But I can’t help it..I’m jealous of your friend.

death or life by SPICE.

if life is about choices, wrong or right
why wasn't i given a choice, to be born or not..
given one..i'd rather not,
i wouldn't miss a thing..sound or sight
feel or taste..i wouldn't know they exist..!

if life is hard..then death should be easy..
everybody dies..but not everybody lives..
Choices suck! Consequences are a mockery..
there's always two sides to a coin..so they say
i say they're three..
..and i'm standing on the side..watching life as it unfolds
serving my expiry period..
it feels kinda odd..
watching myself live..just to die..

lost by SPICE

sometimes i find myself completely lost
i can't figure out stuff between us
it's like i want to let go but i don't know how
i've had better girls in my life, better relationships
but us, what we have..
i don't know what it is..but it doesn't feel right

distance has kept us hoping that maybe we have a chance
maybe that first kiss will change it all for us
maybe if i look into your eyes then i'll see what i've been missing all this time
whatever the outcome, what i feel right now.,
..is that i'm not for this.
worst part of my feelings is that.,
i really don't think much about what you feel
cause what i feel tells me that this is not it.
I still feel lost..with a need to find that special someone..
..or to be found, by that special someone

Missive by SPICE

whatever that's going through my head right now,
it's not you.

whatever rhythm my heart is following,
it's not you.

whatever my body craves, my desires burning..
it's surely not you.

but here i am with you...lying next to you.
your leg on and between my thighs..
your arm across my chest..i'm holding you.

why're we here like this..what is this?!

how can i push you away, tell you to leave
how can i bring myself to tell you..
that maybe i should've just turned you down

i would love to turn things around..
To that point where we claimed that this was love..
..i hate lying, but i'm too nice of a guy..

whatever's going through my head right now..
It's nothing you want to hear..
So i'll just write it on a paper..and when you wake up.,
you'll find it next to you..
and I'll be gone........

..you wouldn't know by SPICE

cold nights await me
lonely days haunt me
cold stares pierce me
words penetrate through me

its been a hard time
i'm not fine
i have tried..
..i have given it all i can
i have been understanding
getting all the angles right

sometimes it works
sometimes it destroys hearts
my heart is burddened
my soul is guilty..
my days are full of torments
my days will be a consequence
i got here..i am here..choices..
choices got me here..
i still have more choices to make
leave or stay..stop and change
or keep going and be damaged
choices..when its bad its pleasant
..i'm figthing my conscience
i'm struggling to stay sane..relevant
this is my struggle..
wrestling my own will....

Foolish Love? by SPICE

You love me foolishly,
You’ve given all you are to me,
You have valued yourself less...
Just to try keep what we had.
It’s what we had because it’s no longer there,
But you don’t see that. You still see us together.
I admire your love,
The belief you have placed in us...
Even after all the lies. The cheating
You see past all that. And still reach out to me
What is it you see in me...?
What’s so good in me that you can’t let go?
I bet some other guy could treat you much better
Am no good for you...
Am too messed up for real love...
Why can’t I just fall in love like everybody else?
Now I have to drag you along in my miserable life
Please don’t love me.., if you know what’s best for you...
Someday it’ll all come to me
And I will have missed something good...
And I will have no regrets. No wishes
..But I will live with loving someone
..Who just won’t love me back...
Cause what goes round. Comes around.

... not surprised by SPICE

Edit
... not surprised by SPICE
by Sawyer Spice on Thursday, November 3, 2011 at 1:26pm

i didnt love you enough
but i tried...
you always thought i hid some stuff,
that i constantly lied..
i felt you're the best i could ever have,
thats a fact i haven't denied.

Love can be complicated,
messes your head up,leaves you infatuated,
conflicting emotions, hurt...damn i hate it.
its a deal breaker..,but fuck we still want it..!

something crazy happened the other day,
cause of a girl, i dissed my mom in a regrettable way,
two days later..i find my girl's legs spread in a familiar way,
and some guy humping her to a song we loved to play.....

but then it hit me, maybe i didnt love her enough..
but i tried.

ords are all i have by SPICE

I would write,
about the girl i love.
I would write,
to express the emotions she triggered in me.
I would write,
to try show her the intensity of my love.
I would write,
to tell her she's my only one.
and that i love her.

Now i write,
because i miss her..
I write,
because her memories still my heart..
I write,
to be calm..and just think about her
I write,
Because its been a while since we last talked
I write,

hoping she will get to read this..
and know that i miss her.

Signed;Lyricist.

..her Beautiful Purple Dress by SPICE

she is the one that makes me do this
sit by the bed and while away
thinking of her smile
trying to recapture her soft voice in my ears
in the crowds i feel her there with me
in my dreams she reveals her angelic self
by the sandy beaches, floating in the breeze
with her beautiful purple dress,
swaying to the carress of the wind..
she intrigues me,am always curious about her
she pulls me in, and keeps me guessing
she's got me hooked..wanting more..and more
something i desire, with the fear of the unknown
something i want...need, but eludes me
..i wait, constantly yearning..
living life as it comes..but there's still a hollow
that i wish for only her..to fill.
i wish against the moonlight..
that her love shall one day glow on me..from me.