Missive by SPICE

whatever that's going through my head right now,
it's not you.

whatever rhythm my heart is following,
it's not you.

whatever my body craves, my desires burning..
it's surely not you.

but here i am with you...lying next to you.
your leg on and between my thighs..
your arm across my chest..i'm holding you.

why're we here like this..what is this?!

how can i push you away, tell you to leave
how can i bring myself to tell you..
that maybe i should've just turned you down

i would love to turn things around..
To that point where we claimed that this was love..
..i hate lying, but i'm too nice of a guy..

whatever's going through my head right now..
It's nothing you want to hear..
So i'll just write it on a paper..and when you wake up.,
you'll find it next to you..
and I'll be gone........