In Your Silence

when you weren't talking to me,
i was drifting away rather swiftly,
the first times it happened hurt deeply,
but 'm getting used to it now really.
meanwhile in your angered serenity,
i got time to catch up with old friends,
i made a couple of new buddies too.
i realized something surprisingly true,
my world doesn't fully revolve around you,
i even ate more, read more, socialized more,
i missed you but i slowly dealt with the feeling,
i gained more control over my emotions.
you're slowly slipping into the majority category,
and my priorities taking the important attention,
the more you get silent on me
the more liberated i feel I'm becoming
the more you denied me your attention
the more i got it from others
I'm undeniably sensing our incompatibility
and my urge to keep searching strongly evident
Man is no island, i am no island
i am always craving companionship
and i will have it where its given

Realisation

Take me away, liberate my mind
Fire up my hopes, and reveal my dreams
I’m a destitute being, humbled and tamed
Wading through life, feeding off fading wishes
Everything I’ve worked for, time and time again
Waiting and hoping, to see a better tomorrow

When do people cut loose from the anchor hope?
I envisioned a different life, but I live a different reality
I used to be the hero, now I’m in need of a hero
To free me from my bondage, show me my purpose
Reveal the meaning of all this...

Is this the dear price I am to pay
For cheating my way through life?
Open my channels of understanding
To deduce reason from cause
Desperation is becoming my turmoil
But my only hope is in You LORD
To offer me peace and guidance
And the strength to see it through.