open season on my heart by SPICE

I speak of a certain love

Somebody hear me out
I have searched endless
To find that perfect love
That doesn’t hurt,
That doesn’t pain
A love that never disappoints
That is always pleasant
I have sought counsel from the wise
From the philosophers and realists
I have found not that which I look for

…still I speak of a certain love

I speak of emotions, feelings
A craving that never lets me be
A desire burning from my soul
Blank stares into space
I listen to the wind, and the waves
The winds blow me dust
And the waves crush upon my hopes
…and I’m left still deluded,

Still I speak of a certain elusive love.

spice.scripts2010

My Letter To All Of You [all are tagged]

For the friends I have met and still have this year, this is my souvenir
If ever I am forced to be away from you, I won’t hold back that tear
Your kind words have mostly lifted me up as an excited deer
Thanks for all the valuable time you’ve spent with me here
Thank you for making this a memorable and eventful year
Sadly some friendships have faded, some have become clear
But I decide to end the year with a lot of energy and cheer
For I’ve also had someone special to me who’s very dear
I’ve tried my best to be myself, to be always nice and sincere
I write poetry, or so I think…it’s for release not really my career
Professionally, i proudly graduated  as a managerial hotelier
My life isn’t really planned out; to me it’s a little unclear
Though with God’s Grace I’ll move forward without fear
I now approach life openly and faithfully in an unfamiliar frontier
If I’ve learned something in life, it’s to learn to persevere

PS:
Living in the parameters of time, we enumerate our lives as an entirety of perceiving the earth make its comprehensive revolution encircling the sun…we live through life having astronomical aspirations and seeking to pull off substantial success. We strive to scale the ladders of the social order to realize standards fed to us by the education system, peers, parents, blood relations and spouses…we forget to live. We overlook the nature call to harmonize with life, we forget to love, forgive and give.

This holiday season, to a larger extent of us it’s Christmas and to others it’s just any other holiday. Whatever it is to you, make a life feel good to be alive…not with material fondness, but compassionate affection. Overlook your ‘class’, or your standards, or who’s watching…help that old man cross the road, smile at that dirty kid by the roadside, pull some positivity out of someone, honor that promise you made, make up with that person you fell out with, let the hate go, the malice, the despise and past grudges…Love a little more this Christmas.

Pray to God for the reality that you are just human and He is God. Live for what is good, right and honorable to God.

"...the worst solitude is to be destitute of sincere friendship..."_Francis Bacon

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAY FRIENDS

Yours Grateful,
Paul Mogaka Ongori

Dont Say It

no don't say it
hold it in one more night
have one last performance
lie to me one last time
have this final meal with me
tell me you enjoy this
but just don't say it tonight

tonight is perfect
beautiful night, slow music
candle lights sparkling through wine
you look amazing, i compliment you
but please hide your eyes
hold back that fake smile
its just one more night with you
that's my final request of you
just don't say it tonight

i know you're leaving me for him
just don't say it....
tell me i atleast made you laugh
that at some point you honestly thought of me
at some point i was that only one for you
let tonight be perfect, calm
let the angels pay sad audience to your final act
you would've told me earlier,
but just not tonight

i won't hold you, nor touch you
i loved kissing you, but not tonight
don't even speak, just listen to me this once
i loved you, i really did love you
a part of me still does to this point

make tonight your grand act,
make it all believable, just like you always do
make it a lasting memory
i have lived a lie with you
though it all hurts finding out
i enjoyed every bit of your lies

so if you have to say goodbye
just don't say it tonight
i could handle your lies unknowingly
but this is one truth from you..,
...that my heart can't take..

stay with me just one more night, tonight.

spice.scripts 2010

"..if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.."

"..You can shed tears that she is gone,“
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on..”

“..I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone,
but I can tell you what it is for me;
love is knowing all about someone,
and still wanting to be with them more than any other person,
love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself,
including the things you might be ashamed of,
love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone,
but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.."

“..One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else..”

"...Don’t say you love me unless you really mean it,
because I might do something crazy like believe it.."

“..I love her and that’s the beginning of everything.."

"..When I see you smile and know that it is not for me,
that is when I will miss you the most..."

Realisation...

i pretend it doesn't bother me
your silence over the distance
i block it out from my thoughts
not to feel this way,no not today
things have changed so fast
the excitement is taking a dive
no matter how hard i try
history is always a constant pry

i reflect on my past as today is
hurt keeps going round as in an axis
familiarity's become a common instance
has it always been about me?
this is more than just coincidence
i wonder, am i the problem ultimately?

i need a change, a different scene
i know this storyline too well
i'm set to lose you, that i've seen
held under a seemingly cast spell

instead of fighting back, i'll make peace
instead of cheating too, i'll stay faithful
instead of doubting you, i'll learn to trust you
instead of giving up, i'll love you more and more
today maybe the sun will shine, instead of rain
i'll wake up beside you tomorrow
instead of shouting at you, this time i'll listen
i will sacrifice...if that means i might keep you

this is my defining moment
this is our defining moment
bear with me,
share with me..
..we need this.

spice.sripts 2010

Fading Away by Spice Poetry

illusion, state of make belief
falsehood, words to deceive
an illusion to me you were
a mirage, so near but yet so far
time barely faded away
soon t'was your back fading away
go on, just walk on away
walk on, and don't look back this way
dumb to echoes, numb to karma
when you come around, i won't be waiting
rocking back and forth, forth and back
stocking lies in your mouth, conscience you lack
as ghostly you came, same way you left
it feels like a fraction of time you were here,
enough to make any significance, t'was never clear
"...goodbye...", your words so clear
go on, just walk on away
walk on, and don't look back this way

spice.scripts 2010

She Is I by SPICE

She is,
...considerate,
...kind and passionate,

She likes,
...to have a good laugh,
...it that i tickle her and other funny stuff.

She has,
...perfectly shaped lashes
...rare inner beauty and not just flashes.

She knows,
...i miss her..,
...that i am one with her.

She is,
...my perfect temperament, a sanguin..,
...my soul's brook fountain.

She says,
...i am the best she's had..,
...i sometimes drive her mad..,
...at times i loose it but it ain't that bad.

She fell,
...for my cute dimples and coolness,
...for my honesty and openness,
...for my appreciating her in humbleness.

She is,
...far away from me in distance,
...the one i see in my dreams every instance,
...my fantasy and every thought in remembrance.

I..,
...envision her in my future,
...believe she'll be in my family's picture.

I can,
...do anything for her,
...and have given my all to her,
...wait till she comes my way and i'll be with her

....I
....Love
....Her.

spice.archives

good night... By Spice

lie down,
empty your mind,
relax your body,
let your thoughts ease you,
close your eyes,
let memories nourish you,
i think of you alone in your bed,
on that pillow you lay your head,
as sleep soothes you,
spare one last thought,
and think of us..think of me,
think of our love...
the painful distance,
as i head to dream heaven,
be my companion into the clouds,
we soar together hand in hand,
let's fly to the moon so bright,
let the stars show our delight,
and for this silent lonely night,
i hope what i'm about to say comes out right,
i love you angel..
goodnight.

spice.lyricist2010

bleeding of regrett... By SPICE.

i get lost in my own world,
shut out all else, alone..
say nothing, think of everything
listen to my thoughts..
..at times they speak,
..at times they're silent,
just like i am, silent.

is this how love wants it,
how long will we be silent,
when is this ending,
our love is still pending,
pride has encroached us,
this tide will drown us..,
silence lives among the dead,
so has our love died?

breathe life into this heart,
hearken unto my soul's plight,
dreams haunt me in the night,
memories of the pain i caused you,
i bleed from regrett, i'm sorry..

forgive me if you might,
surpress the hatred...,the hurt,
free me..free you...free us.

deserving nothing from you,
i never did deserve anything,
if i never realised i needed you,
this moment you hold my life,
if this slightly sounds as to be untrue,
this is what i deserve out of life.

here i am.., alone, broken
here we are..,forgone, forsaken
hear my plea.., awaken
i killed us, but i'm still dying, slow and painful..
in this wilderness..i created.

spice.scripts2010

unquenched lust... By SPICE

Quietly she got dressed
And silently faded away into the night
He lay there passed out
Robbed off his senses
By the artistry of her charming ways

She was twenty three, young wild and free
Dreams of success suffocated her young imagination
Glamour, bright lights and fame…
Screams, smiles and flashing cameras…her name on billboards
but her hunger sprouted from deep within.

Waiting for the unsuspecting,
She is the Queen Mistress of the night
Men worship her, a beguiling mystery
Her brown eyes, her ever soothing demeanor
Hypnotizing Medusa, a cunning Delilah
Her passion is a fire that never burns out

She thirsts not for gold and diamond
Every bed she lays in is a crowning glory
She bathes in their awe and adoration of her
They speak of her prowess in the street corners and bars
She joins to listen among them…unknown to them
She’s a mystery…In her heart lies a thirst
A hunger for astronomical sexual pleasures

She waits every night in the dim neon-lit alleys,
Her fragrance pulling in her sure conquests,
her seduction is spoken of like a mythical tale,
Few lucky to be sane men have spoken of her tale..
..In the envy of others  who develop the thirst.
They set out in the night, floating in the scent of her fragrance,
They set out…to meet the beautiful stranger of the night.

Spice.scripts2010 ©

broken wings... By SPICE.

ours wasn't a fairy tale start,
ours was the beginning of your painful end..or so i thought.
many years of hurt aging in you,
solace and peace you conceived with me,
i lifted you when your past weighed you down,
long after he left it in shambles,
i recollected that belief back into you...
ours isn't a beautiful fairy tale.

in your sleep, heard you call out his name.,
you give me your affection, him your love.
you offer me your body..but he holds your heart and soul.
what keeps you with me,
away from the one you love?
i hurt in painful silence, when you shed tears for him,
indeed this is no beautiful fairy tale,
for i fore see no happy ending...atleast not for me!

in your moment of weakness...moment of yearning,
in my moment of caring, moment of falling for you,
i wish i never kissed you, never touched you..
i should've been a friend,
i should've not fallen in love...

a bird you were with a broken wing,
took care of you..made you my own,
you wanna fly away,
now that your wing has healed,
for the joy you brought shortly,
i won't cage you up in captivity,
fly away my beautiful bird...
...and i long for the day,
you will fly back on to my arm...

spice.scripts2010

a night in november by SPICE

wipe away your reminiscence of us;
the memories of our love unison,
kill the hopes you harbor,
of us ever being in love again.
destroy everything we created,
that always was the fire burning in us!

i no longer exist to you,
i’m but just a dust particle in a sand storm,
sand storm that is our love life,so far gone
wake up, it’s not a dream anymore
this is the nightmare we crafted…
to understand the person i’ve become,
disdained and dejected to love again!

you reach out your hand that I won’t catch,
chasing shadows in the name of lost love,
this is what you receive, what you deserve
i’m leaving to a far off place
deep within the depths of my heart to find me
one thing that remains…you won’t be there

Let loose off the grip on my heart,
stupid I was…to let loose to you…
but it was the finest moment’
…back when i lost control with you.
we loved so much that we suffocated us
no longer will I write out of your inspiration
won’t run to you with my highs and lows
you never took me in with all my flaws
this is the last bit of memory I’ll create of you
for tonight I walk towards the rainbow….
for the colors of our love have long faded.

spice.scripts 2010

Echoes

A thousand miles away
Just a thought close to me
You dwell in my being so alive
But you’re a thousand miles away

Love don’t come easy
Separated and alone
Cold nights amidst burning desires
Missing your smile in the morning sun

Minutes, hours, days turn into years
No other shoulder will take my tears
Memories are growing old and tired
Ripe time the winds brought you home

I hear your voice from the birds among swaying trees
Your eyes in the shinning stars in the night sky
I smell your scent in the breeze every cold morning
I feel your foot steps across the thought paths of my mind
…and I hear my heart call out to yours saying, ‘I miss you’!

spice.lyricist2010 ©

Prodigal Hearts

what killed us, so young in love,
what mistakes did we make,
what happened, can we live in the flip side,
what did we do to let it all ensue,
what destroyed our blossoming fairy tale?

if i drop everything, will you reconsider,
if only you could let go off your attitude and concur,
if we tried a little harder..however you would prefer,
if we can be lifeless to the ghosts of doubt pulling us under,
if it means anything to you...please hear me out!

what if i tell you i still love you,
what if i ignored all others just to be with you,
what if I received a little more trust from you,
what if things were different between me and you,
what if this day hadn’t brought me you?

this has got to mean something,
we have a second chance with us,
let's make this the beginning of us,
kill the past and end all the fighting,
give this our best with no more hurting,
steer this story to a fairy tale ending,
the story of our love.

spice.scripts 2010 ©

a kiss so passionate by SPICE

A kiss so passionate!,

K- knocks me off my every senses,
I- immensely takes over my defenses.
S- spontaneity jerks me into life,
S- stolen kisses gear up inner high sex drives,

S- saturating the aura with lustful aroma,
O- orgasmic pulses nerving through dilated veins,

P- pouncing on mild thoughts suggestive of intimacy,
A- andante progression to build up the ecstasy,
S- satiate my lips into a seasoned, juicy fruity feel..,
S- sublime movement of the tongues to heighten the zeal
I- infuse our savory juices my urge to unseal
O- overwhelm my resistance my craving to reveal…
N- nibble across the soft flesh of the lower lip
A- aptly read my reaction intent to sink dip,
T- towards the depths converging centrally to your hips,
E- eventually ease an egoistic earnest erection into emulsion.¬¬

spice.sentiments 2010 ©

all is vanity without u / SPICE

Trying to hold back my tears,
But my eyes can’t shut tight enough,
…Tight enough not to see you walk away.
And it hurts, thought I should say,
My heart is crushing at your feet,
…Begging you, pleading with you to stay.

You say you love me no more,
You say goodbye and that you have to go,
My angel, why do you dessert this dream,
Why rob me off such a heavenly token?
I’m downcast, beaten and broken,
Isn’t it clear how much I need you,
…how much I love you?

My heart throbs amongst thorns,
Every beat is a painful prick of piercing thorns,
Redemption better dwells on a bed of fiery coals,
I’m falling apart, leaning back up against crumbling walls,
You took me in and we promised us forever,
…we’ve been through so much together..,
Why do you now turn away from me?

I’m lying on rocky ground suffocated,
My face down to the dirt feeling rejected,
My heart defiled and disrespected,
Sad days shall later be gone,
And my tears shall stop flowing,
But my love will never stop showing!
I can’t let you go, that you should know…
What’s this life without your touch?
For your laugh, your smile…forever I can search,
And that assuring hug…I can find none with such.

How can I show you what you mean to me?
You mean my life to me;
Everything is nothing without you,
I will love you with my last breath;
Give my all to hold on to you…
I will bruise and break myself fighting fate,
Just to show it I won’t let you go.

Spice.scrolls2010 ©

un-commissioned hurt by SPICE

what is it about love that turns a person into a fool?
that would make a humble being be so cruel,
no emotions after a heartbreak, despise burns up as hot fuel,
all get served the epidemic like it's a universal good.

fools appear loomed into manipulation, use and abuse,
cruelty is instigated on them, a love they willingly had to choose,
fueling up more hatred that will ultimately lead to a burnt out fuse,
rules were never laid down, to play out emotions to a truce.

abuse rules unmerited companionships founded on lust,
choosing the love masked with eros, hard to build on trust,
fuse two un-matched hearts..and no sparks of union will combust,
truce, par, evenly matched...will be terms rare as cosmic dust.

what is it about love that has us immersed in this pain?
that would still have me glued to you like a regular shot of cocaine?
no hope to celebrate the future, it all seems to be in vain,
all seems destined, in a different domain...i'll find love again.

spice.archives 2010

distance in between | SPICE

the night was young and the winds were cold,
we took a walk beneath the shining stars and the clear night sky.
we let ourselves go to the power of the moon light,
experiencing our feelings in their natural splendour,
...but was it just a passing fancy?
However real it felt,how are we going to make it last.?

the night was young and the winds were cold,
i hugged you close to me..to keep you warm,
thoughts in my mind sent me to the imminent dim future,
i will miss seeing your face..feeling you near me,
when i leave to a far away city,
will you still believe in us?
This is where we are,is it time for goodbye?

our attraction was young and the past had grown cold,
nervous in your presence for it's time to leave,
right back here with you is where i wanna be.
a kiss on your lips and a sigh oh so softly,
..a look into your eyes and that's where you capture me.
Does my admiration scare you so much?
..this is not an obsession,just mad affection...

spice.scripts 2010(c)

do it again | SPICE

kiss me from my neck down my chest,
capture the moment one more time,
do it like you did it before,
make me feel again...

on that last night that we were together,
you held me so close to you,
your arms around me made me feel protected,
it was an awesome feeling.

i lay on your chest as you gently brushed my braids with your fingers,
soft movement down my back...you took me as your own,
a feeling i didn't want to lose...

...your kisses on my breasts,
as your touch felt my every curve,
sending tingling sensations round the tips of my nipples..
...pull back the memories to be real one more time,
make the loving words you said to me sound real again,
that moment when our thoughts were like glass...honest and true.

i miss you every fraction of time you are away,
your gentle kisses..your soft lips on mine.

now the night calls..when silence settles in,
and thoughts echo in my mind..
i wish you were here,
...to kiss me from my neck down my chest,
to capture the moment one more time,
do it like you did it before,
make me feel again....

spice.scripts2010 (c)

close by me | SPICE

let's chase after this love that's elusive to us,
you're the strength i need to believe in it,
carry me upon the desires of your heart,
prepare me a soft place to land at the end of my fall,
nourish my heart from the depths of your soul,
speak to me through the touch of your hand..
the look in your eyes,
shows me what love is in you..
paint it with the bright colors of your smile,
i feel it all over me..
i'm taken captive of your innocent demeanor,
a gem among ladies..
you beam through as the bright moon among twinkling stars,
i desire and think of no other but you..
though you're far what i feel is true,
in my mind you rule supreme..
every thought is you,
every moment special moment
is a moment i wanna share with you,
a fountain flows inside of me..,
but it alone cannot quench my thirst for you,
i need you here with me...