Faded Love

It is not something that's black and white
To stop loving you and actually tell you that
Even if i tried, at some point you'd see it
Please don't cry for me, cause it's just a shame

I am not worthy of your tears, i can't claim your heart
Try to rise above all the years, that you've been hurt
Eventually confirming the fears, that you had from the start
"Paul you're a liar, and everything to you is like a game"

I could pretend that i didn't feel the pain
That moment when you found out again
Every promise i made was made in vain
Probably things would still have been the same.

I tried just like you, some people say that is all that matters
Things haven't worked out, feelings spread out in tatters
Endless wishes of a special love served in silver platters
Politely i would say we were crazy, not in the right 'heart' frame

It started out fine, It was amazing, It was all we wanted
Though feelings change, Feelings fade, Feelings are jaded
Envy for Jealousy, Love for Hate, Flirts..words not intended
People see things differently, love sometimes just gets fucked up!!

Felt Right, But It Was Wrong

Minutes ticked away poignantly, hours turned into days

Thoughts spinning, her stare caught in a blank daze

Appearances had her hoping, wishing in so many ways

Mostly he had her believing, that he’s the kind that stays

‘I Love You’ that is a rather overly misused phrase

She now has ears deaf to any man who’ll say it to her face

All the memories of the past were painfully erased

Lest he apologizes for what he did, the pain he caused

He didn’t change who she was, he destroyed who she could be

She readily admitted to herself, that she was too blinded to see

There’s no such thing as forever on this earth, it just can’t be

What wrong did she commit, what are the signs she didn’t see

She will heal in time, the recurring pain of love lost

Prey to deceitful charm, he pursued her at any cost

Itching regret of time wasted, moments when it all looked rosy

She lies on the bed chastened, holding her white pillow closely

Is the pain the essence of love, could she love without being hurt

Is betrayal the evidence of lies, could she possibly have seen that

Is trust the absence of reason, could she have protected her heart

She hurts in silence, sadness, pain, self-pity, heartbroken, damaged….