..you wouldn't know by SPICE

cold nights await me
lonely days haunt me
cold stares pierce me
words penetrate through me

its been a hard time
i'm not fine
i have tried..
..i have given it all i can
i have been understanding
getting all the angles right

sometimes it works
sometimes it destroys hearts
my heart is burddened
my soul is guilty..
my days are full of torments
my days will be a consequence
i got here..i am here..choices..
choices got me here..
i still have more choices to make
leave or stay..stop and change
or keep going and be damaged
choices..when its bad its pleasant
..i'm figthing my conscience
i'm struggling to stay sane..relevant
this is my struggle..
wrestling my own will....