life in shades of grey | spice

am at a point of breaking down
my emotions mocked
my thoughts blocked
am at a point of sinking to drown

at this point i feel alone and deserted
my cries echo into empty valleys
my hands indulge in frantic help displays
at this point i feel torn and unwanted

....at this point i am caged and damaged

don't know who or what to turn to
does anyone even take this as being true
my outside is calm and collected
my inside is full of chaos, a turmoil undetected
it's no longer my genuine smiles
it's all in my face, unnarrated tales.
who will see past this rough tough exterior
..and comfort my fragile and soft but troubled interior.?
someone to shine a light in my darkness
to bring rain in this dryness
will someone see, feel or hear me out someday?
will someone just maybe, just teach me how to pray?

spice.scripts 2010