Real Hurt by Spice

it hurts
again we're silent
another fight turned raw
i feel empty with you
...and that hurts
see what we're turning into
we promised to work things out
it no longer feels right
we have achieved nothing
it hurts baby
cause i still love you

I don't wanna cry
i don't wanna let you go
my world is slowly turning cold
it hurts,
it hurts that we'll never be us again
can't we fight fate
turn the hands of time
..and go back where we used to be?
it hurts to stay,
it hurts more to let go.

i can't accept it's all gone
every moment we spent together
it hurts cause i'm breaking down
it hurts cause forever is not here yet
i want to keep believing
pretending not to see that it's over
i linger on to your every word of promise
it hurts knowing they'll never be.

i'm left with shades of memories
trying to see where i went wrong
i can't go on believing fantasy
i can't go on believing in magic
it hurts that you're loving someone else
it hurts that i'm losing space in your heart

it hurts thinking about it
baby i don't wanna cry
never have you made me cry
you're the best love i've ever known
I don't know what I would do without it

you covered me when problems caved me in
always answered my call in time of need
loving you got me through these hard times
i'm here fighting cause i believe in you
i believe in your love
I don't know what I would do without it

it hurts that we have to part ways
i tried baby, maybe not hard enough
now you lie in somebody else's arms
kissing somebody else's lips
thinking not of me, but his love
it hurts to watch you depart from me
..and this is the price i have to pay?
could it hurt a little less,
bite the soothe me...
if you ever find his love, and you're happy,
that's all i wish for you..
that's all i wanted for you,
goodbye, i have to say goodbye baby..,
it hurts that your mind is already made up.

spice.scripts 2010

open season on my heart by SPICE

I speak of a certain love

Somebody hear me out
I have searched endless
To find that perfect love
That doesn’t hurt,
That doesn’t pain
A love that never disappoints
That is always pleasant
I have sought counsel from the wise
From the philosophers and realists
I have found not that which I look for

…still I speak of a certain love

I speak of emotions, feelings
A craving that never lets me be
A desire burning from my soul
Blank stares into space
I listen to the wind, and the waves
The winds blow me dust
And the waves crush upon my hopes
…and I’m left still deluded,

Still I speak of a certain elusive love.

spice.scripts2010

My Letter To All Of You [all are tagged]

For the friends I have met and still have this year, this is my souvenir
If ever I am forced to be away from you, I won’t hold back that tear
Your kind words have mostly lifted me up as an excited deer
Thanks for all the valuable time you’ve spent with me here
Thank you for making this a memorable and eventful year
Sadly some friendships have faded, some have become clear
But I decide to end the year with a lot of energy and cheer
For I’ve also had someone special to me who’s very dear
I’ve tried my best to be myself, to be always nice and sincere
I write poetry, or so I think…it’s for release not really my career
Professionally, i proudly graduated  as a managerial hotelier
My life isn’t really planned out; to me it’s a little unclear
Though with God’s Grace I’ll move forward without fear
I now approach life openly and faithfully in an unfamiliar frontier
If I’ve learned something in life, it’s to learn to persevere

PS:
Living in the parameters of time, we enumerate our lives as an entirety of perceiving the earth make its comprehensive revolution encircling the sun…we live through life having astronomical aspirations and seeking to pull off substantial success. We strive to scale the ladders of the social order to realize standards fed to us by the education system, peers, parents, blood relations and spouses…we forget to live. We overlook the nature call to harmonize with life, we forget to love, forgive and give.

This holiday season, to a larger extent of us it’s Christmas and to others it’s just any other holiday. Whatever it is to you, make a life feel good to be alive…not with material fondness, but compassionate affection. Overlook your ‘class’, or your standards, or who’s watching…help that old man cross the road, smile at that dirty kid by the roadside, pull some positivity out of someone, honor that promise you made, make up with that person you fell out with, let the hate go, the malice, the despise and past grudges…Love a little more this Christmas.

Pray to God for the reality that you are just human and He is God. Live for what is good, right and honorable to God.

"...the worst solitude is to be destitute of sincere friendship..."_Francis Bacon

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAY FRIENDS

Yours Grateful,
Paul Mogaka Ongori

Dont Say It

no don't say it
hold it in one more night
have one last performance
lie to me one last time
have this final meal with me
tell me you enjoy this
but just don't say it tonight

tonight is perfect
beautiful night, slow music
candle lights sparkling through wine
you look amazing, i compliment you
but please hide your eyes
hold back that fake smile
its just one more night with you
that's my final request of you
just don't say it tonight

i know you're leaving me for him
just don't say it....
tell me i atleast made you laugh
that at some point you honestly thought of me
at some point i was that only one for you
let tonight be perfect, calm
let the angels pay sad audience to your final act
you would've told me earlier,
but just not tonight

i won't hold you, nor touch you
i loved kissing you, but not tonight
don't even speak, just listen to me this once
i loved you, i really did love you
a part of me still does to this point

make tonight your grand act,
make it all believable, just like you always do
make it a lasting memory
i have lived a lie with you
though it all hurts finding out
i enjoyed every bit of your lies

so if you have to say goodbye
just don't say it tonight
i could handle your lies unknowingly
but this is one truth from you..,
...that my heart can't take..

stay with me just one more night, tonight.

spice.scripts 2010

"..if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.."

"..You can shed tears that she is gone,“
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on..”

“..I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone,
but I can tell you what it is for me;
love is knowing all about someone,
and still wanting to be with them more than any other person,
love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself,
including the things you might be ashamed of,
love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone,
but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.."

“..One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else..”

"...Don’t say you love me unless you really mean it,
because I might do something crazy like believe it.."

“..I love her and that’s the beginning of everything.."

"..When I see you smile and know that it is not for me,
that is when I will miss you the most..."

Realisation...

i pretend it doesn't bother me
your silence over the distance
i block it out from my thoughts
not to feel this way,no not today
things have changed so fast
the excitement is taking a dive
no matter how hard i try
history is always a constant pry

i reflect on my past as today is
hurt keeps going round as in an axis
familiarity's become a common instance
has it always been about me?
this is more than just coincidence
i wonder, am i the problem ultimately?

i need a change, a different scene
i know this storyline too well
i'm set to lose you, that i've seen
held under a seemingly cast spell

instead of fighting back, i'll make peace
instead of cheating too, i'll stay faithful
instead of doubting you, i'll learn to trust you
instead of giving up, i'll love you more and more
today maybe the sun will shine, instead of rain
i'll wake up beside you tomorrow
instead of shouting at you, this time i'll listen
i will sacrifice...if that means i might keep you

this is my defining moment
this is our defining moment
bear with me,
share with me..
..we need this.

spice.sripts 2010

Fading Away by Spice Poetry

illusion, state of make belief
falsehood, words to deceive
an illusion to me you were
a mirage, so near but yet so far
time barely faded away
soon t'was your back fading away
go on, just walk on away
walk on, and don't look back this way
dumb to echoes, numb to karma
when you come around, i won't be waiting
rocking back and forth, forth and back
stocking lies in your mouth, conscience you lack
as ghostly you came, same way you left
it feels like a fraction of time you were here,
enough to make any significance, t'was never clear
"...goodbye...", your words so clear
go on, just walk on away
walk on, and don't look back this way

spice.scripts 2010

She Is I by SPICE

She is,
...considerate,
...kind and passionate,

She likes,
...to have a good laugh,
...it that i tickle her and other funny stuff.

She has,
...perfectly shaped lashes
...rare inner beauty and not just flashes.

She knows,
...i miss her..,
...that i am one with her.

She is,
...my perfect temperament, a sanguin..,
...my soul's brook fountain.

She says,
...i am the best she's had..,
...i sometimes drive her mad..,
...at times i loose it but it ain't that bad.

She fell,
...for my cute dimples and coolness,
...for my honesty and openness,
...for my appreciating her in humbleness.

She is,
...far away from me in distance,
...the one i see in my dreams every instance,
...my fantasy and every thought in remembrance.

I..,
...envision her in my future,
...believe she'll be in my family's picture.

I can,
...do anything for her,
...and have given my all to her,
...wait till she comes my way and i'll be with her

....I
....Love
....Her.

spice.archives

good night... By Spice

lie down,
empty your mind,
relax your body,
let your thoughts ease you,
close your eyes,
let memories nourish you,
i think of you alone in your bed,
on that pillow you lay your head,
as sleep soothes you,
spare one last thought,
and think of us..think of me,
think of our love...
the painful distance,
as i head to dream heaven,
be my companion into the clouds,
we soar together hand in hand,
let's fly to the moon so bright,
let the stars show our delight,
and for this silent lonely night,
i hope what i'm about to say comes out right,
i love you angel..
goodnight.

spice.lyricist2010

bleeding of regrett... By SPICE.

i get lost in my own world,
shut out all else, alone..
say nothing, think of everything
listen to my thoughts..
..at times they speak,
..at times they're silent,
just like i am, silent.

is this how love wants it,
how long will we be silent,
when is this ending,
our love is still pending,
pride has encroached us,
this tide will drown us..,
silence lives among the dead,
so has our love died?

breathe life into this heart,
hearken unto my soul's plight,
dreams haunt me in the night,
memories of the pain i caused you,
i bleed from regrett, i'm sorry..

forgive me if you might,
surpress the hatred...,the hurt,
free me..free you...free us.

deserving nothing from you,
i never did deserve anything,
if i never realised i needed you,
this moment you hold my life,
if this slightly sounds as to be untrue,
this is what i deserve out of life.

here i am.., alone, broken
here we are..,forgone, forsaken
hear my plea.., awaken
i killed us, but i'm still dying, slow and painful..
in this wilderness..i created.

spice.scripts2010

unquenched lust... By SPICE

Quietly she got dressed
And silently faded away into the night
He lay there passed out
Robbed off his senses
By the artistry of her charming ways

She was twenty three, young wild and free
Dreams of success suffocated her young imagination
Glamour, bright lights and fame…
Screams, smiles and flashing cameras…her name on billboards
but her hunger sprouted from deep within.

Waiting for the unsuspecting,
She is the Queen Mistress of the night
Men worship her, a beguiling mystery
Her brown eyes, her ever soothing demeanor
Hypnotizing Medusa, a cunning Delilah
Her passion is a fire that never burns out

She thirsts not for gold and diamond
Every bed she lays in is a crowning glory
She bathes in their awe and adoration of her
They speak of her prowess in the street corners and bars
She joins to listen among them…unknown to them
She’s a mystery…In her heart lies a thirst
A hunger for astronomical sexual pleasures

She waits every night in the dim neon-lit alleys,
Her fragrance pulling in her sure conquests,
her seduction is spoken of like a mythical tale,
Few lucky to be sane men have spoken of her tale..
..In the envy of others  who develop the thirst.
They set out in the night, floating in the scent of her fragrance,
They set out…to meet the beautiful stranger of the night.

Spice.scripts2010 ©

broken wings... By SPICE.

ours wasn't a fairy tale start,
ours was the beginning of your painful end..or so i thought.
many years of hurt aging in you,
solace and peace you conceived with me,
i lifted you when your past weighed you down,
long after he left it in shambles,
i recollected that belief back into you...
ours isn't a beautiful fairy tale.

in your sleep, heard you call out his name.,
you give me your affection, him your love.
you offer me your body..but he holds your heart and soul.
what keeps you with me,
away from the one you love?
i hurt in painful silence, when you shed tears for him,
indeed this is no beautiful fairy tale,
for i fore see no happy ending...atleast not for me!

in your moment of weakness...moment of yearning,
in my moment of caring, moment of falling for you,
i wish i never kissed you, never touched you..
i should've been a friend,
i should've not fallen in love...

a bird you were with a broken wing,
took care of you..made you my own,
you wanna fly away,
now that your wing has healed,
for the joy you brought shortly,
i won't cage you up in captivity,
fly away my beautiful bird...
...and i long for the day,
you will fly back on to my arm...

spice.scripts2010

a night in november by SPICE

wipe away your reminiscence of us;
the memories of our love unison,
kill the hopes you harbor,
of us ever being in love again.
destroy everything we created,
that always was the fire burning in us!

i no longer exist to you,
i’m but just a dust particle in a sand storm,
sand storm that is our love life,so far gone
wake up, it’s not a dream anymore
this is the nightmare we crafted…
to understand the person i’ve become,
disdained and dejected to love again!

you reach out your hand that I won’t catch,
chasing shadows in the name of lost love,
this is what you receive, what you deserve
i’m leaving to a far off place
deep within the depths of my heart to find me
one thing that remains…you won’t be there

Let loose off the grip on my heart,
stupid I was…to let loose to you…
but it was the finest moment’
…back when i lost control with you.
we loved so much that we suffocated us
no longer will I write out of your inspiration
won’t run to you with my highs and lows
you never took me in with all my flaws
this is the last bit of memory I’ll create of you
for tonight I walk towards the rainbow….
for the colors of our love have long faded.

spice.scripts 2010

Echoes

A thousand miles away
Just a thought close to me
You dwell in my being so alive
But you’re a thousand miles away

Love don’t come easy
Separated and alone
Cold nights amidst burning desires
Missing your smile in the morning sun

Minutes, hours, days turn into years
No other shoulder will take my tears
Memories are growing old and tired
Ripe time the winds brought you home

I hear your voice from the birds among swaying trees
Your eyes in the shinning stars in the night sky
I smell your scent in the breeze every cold morning
I feel your foot steps across the thought paths of my mind
…and I hear my heart call out to yours saying, ‘I miss you’!

spice.lyricist2010 ©

Prodigal Hearts

what killed us, so young in love,
what mistakes did we make,
what happened, can we live in the flip side,
what did we do to let it all ensue,
what destroyed our blossoming fairy tale?

if i drop everything, will you reconsider,
if only you could let go off your attitude and concur,
if we tried a little harder..however you would prefer,
if we can be lifeless to the ghosts of doubt pulling us under,
if it means anything to you...please hear me out!

what if i tell you i still love you,
what if i ignored all others just to be with you,
what if I received a little more trust from you,
what if things were different between me and you,
what if this day hadn’t brought me you?

this has got to mean something,
we have a second chance with us,
let's make this the beginning of us,
kill the past and end all the fighting,
give this our best with no more hurting,
steer this story to a fairy tale ending,
the story of our love.

spice.scripts 2010 ©

a kiss so passionate by SPICE

A kiss so passionate!,

K- knocks me off my every senses,
I- immensely takes over my defenses.
S- spontaneity jerks me into life,
S- stolen kisses gear up inner high sex drives,

S- saturating the aura with lustful aroma,
O- orgasmic pulses nerving through dilated veins,

P- pouncing on mild thoughts suggestive of intimacy,
A- andante progression to build up the ecstasy,
S- satiate my lips into a seasoned, juicy fruity feel..,
S- sublime movement of the tongues to heighten the zeal
I- infuse our savory juices my urge to unseal
O- overwhelm my resistance my craving to reveal…
N- nibble across the soft flesh of the lower lip
A- aptly read my reaction intent to sink dip,
T- towards the depths converging centrally to your hips,
E- eventually ease an egoistic earnest erection into emulsion.¬¬

spice.sentiments 2010 ©

all is vanity without u / SPICE

Trying to hold back my tears,
But my eyes can’t shut tight enough,
…Tight enough not to see you walk away.
And it hurts, thought I should say,
My heart is crushing at your feet,
…Begging you, pleading with you to stay.

You say you love me no more,
You say goodbye and that you have to go,
My angel, why do you dessert this dream,
Why rob me off such a heavenly token?
I’m downcast, beaten and broken,
Isn’t it clear how much I need you,
…how much I love you?

My heart throbs amongst thorns,
Every beat is a painful prick of piercing thorns,
Redemption better dwells on a bed of fiery coals,
I’m falling apart, leaning back up against crumbling walls,
You took me in and we promised us forever,
…we’ve been through so much together..,
Why do you now turn away from me?

I’m lying on rocky ground suffocated,
My face down to the dirt feeling rejected,
My heart defiled and disrespected,
Sad days shall later be gone,
And my tears shall stop flowing,
But my love will never stop showing!
I can’t let you go, that you should know…
What’s this life without your touch?
For your laugh, your smile…forever I can search,
And that assuring hug…I can find none with such.

How can I show you what you mean to me?
You mean my life to me;
Everything is nothing without you,
I will love you with my last breath;
Give my all to hold on to you…
I will bruise and break myself fighting fate,
Just to show it I won’t let you go.

Spice.scrolls2010 ©

un-commissioned hurt by SPICE

what is it about love that turns a person into a fool?
that would make a humble being be so cruel,
no emotions after a heartbreak, despise burns up as hot fuel,
all get served the epidemic like it's a universal good.

fools appear loomed into manipulation, use and abuse,
cruelty is instigated on them, a love they willingly had to choose,
fueling up more hatred that will ultimately lead to a burnt out fuse,
rules were never laid down, to play out emotions to a truce.

abuse rules unmerited companionships founded on lust,
choosing the love masked with eros, hard to build on trust,
fuse two un-matched hearts..and no sparks of union will combust,
truce, par, evenly matched...will be terms rare as cosmic dust.

what is it about love that has us immersed in this pain?
that would still have me glued to you like a regular shot of cocaine?
no hope to celebrate the future, it all seems to be in vain,
all seems destined, in a different domain...i'll find love again.

spice.archives 2010

distance in between | SPICE

the night was young and the winds were cold,
we took a walk beneath the shining stars and the clear night sky.
we let ourselves go to the power of the moon light,
experiencing our feelings in their natural splendour,
...but was it just a passing fancy?
However real it felt,how are we going to make it last.?

the night was young and the winds were cold,
i hugged you close to me..to keep you warm,
thoughts in my mind sent me to the imminent dim future,
i will miss seeing your face..feeling you near me,
when i leave to a far away city,
will you still believe in us?
This is where we are,is it time for goodbye?

our attraction was young and the past had grown cold,
nervous in your presence for it's time to leave,
right back here with you is where i wanna be.
a kiss on your lips and a sigh oh so softly,
..a look into your eyes and that's where you capture me.
Does my admiration scare you so much?
..this is not an obsession,just mad affection...

spice.scripts 2010(c)

do it again | SPICE

kiss me from my neck down my chest,
capture the moment one more time,
do it like you did it before,
make me feel again...

on that last night that we were together,
you held me so close to you,
your arms around me made me feel protected,
it was an awesome feeling.

i lay on your chest as you gently brushed my braids with your fingers,
soft movement down my back...you took me as your own,
a feeling i didn't want to lose...

...your kisses on my breasts,
as your touch felt my every curve,
sending tingling sensations round the tips of my nipples..
...pull back the memories to be real one more time,
make the loving words you said to me sound real again,
that moment when our thoughts were like glass...honest and true.

i miss you every fraction of time you are away,
your gentle kisses..your soft lips on mine.

now the night calls..when silence settles in,
and thoughts echo in my mind..
i wish you were here,
...to kiss me from my neck down my chest,
to capture the moment one more time,
do it like you did it before,
make me feel again....

spice.scripts2010 (c)

close by me | SPICE

let's chase after this love that's elusive to us,
you're the strength i need to believe in it,
carry me upon the desires of your heart,
prepare me a soft place to land at the end of my fall,
nourish my heart from the depths of your soul,
speak to me through the touch of your hand..
the look in your eyes,
shows me what love is in you..
paint it with the bright colors of your smile,
i feel it all over me..
i'm taken captive of your innocent demeanor,
a gem among ladies..
you beam through as the bright moon among twinkling stars,
i desire and think of no other but you..
though you're far what i feel is true,
in my mind you rule supreme..
every thought is you,
every moment special moment
is a moment i wanna share with you,
a fountain flows inside of me..,
but it alone cannot quench my thirst for you,
i need you here with me...

no other touch by SPICEY and TRAICY

think of me when you're alone,
when you're cold and need to be held,
at night in your sleep...
let me be that person in your dreams to keep
let your heart beat for me
i want that too when you think of me..
when you read from me, hear from me.
..i wanna be all you think of
till you can feel my touch,

see the need in my eyes and search..
when we finally let open our hearts to each other
submit to my touch, my kiss and all i have offer
..hold the belief that we'll breathe the same air someday,
and we wont have to imagine no more,
but realize our feelings and emotions together
my lips are dry..ever since you last kissed them
how i wish we could have that moment again
sink those claws into my skin with elated pleasure
its difficult not to miss you..
i hope you miss me too
you're calling to me, i might be delusional but i hear it..
i hope you hear me too,
you're the only one who can take this feeling away,
no other touch will do
you've hammered it so deep..
i can't take the heat..i'm burning up for you
you should feel my heart beat right now
i wanna loosen and let myself go
let myself fall freely into your charm..your demeanour
my twinkle star, your glare brightens me all day..like a kid in neon lights
up above the sky so high,
you're that diamond in my sky..

spice.collabo2010 (c)

Free fall by SPICE

your name resounds in my head
every time we talked late into the night

the fantasies we created within our words
reality never felt so tangible
i wish to gaze upon your beauty
to hold your hand,and look into your eyes
you make it so easy for me to like you
i feel more of myself in your world
i sit here looking at your picture
picturing the smile out of those lips
imagining how you'll sound when i make you laugh
wishing that it was no longer about thoughts
i close my eyes to see you in my world
i want this more than ever,..to have you close by me
i feel the distance more than the miles in between
i wanna fly away from this loneliness
to come to you...
i just want to fly up and away..
..to fall harder for you

spice.scripts2010 (c) 

distant whisper by SPICE

Embracing you so close to me
I sense the slight fear in your embrace
No need to be for I’ll be gentle
I won’t come on too strong
Shaky voice as a distant whisper
Your hands rested easily on my back
I clasp you firmer round your back
Pressing thy modest breasts touching my chest
Your fingers then clench tighter on my shirt
Your body ready to let free on me
What scares you beautiful one
Is it me that you’re scared of..,
…or is it what I’m making you feel?
I mean no harm dear,
This moment calls for it..
For my lips to feel your lips,

For my kiss upon  your neck,
For my breath to caress the soft hairs on your neck
Why do you resist
Your knees can no longer support you
With every tender stroke on your back,
You get heavier…weak…
Why don’t you look me in the eye?
See the passion glowing in me
You’re so close to me, so near
Lip to lip…hip to hip
I didn’t plan for this
I let the mood carry me,
Your eyes sparkle in the dim light
Brown skin feels so supple and smooth
You rest on my shoulder
Contemplating my next touch
..and I can’t help it
..but be the gentle man
To take your hand,
And simply kiss you goodnight.

Spice.scripts2010 (c)

in my mind | SPICE.erotics

Came home early,
Prepared a scented warm bath for you,
With wine and candles,
Softly playing your favorite love songs,
Door bell rings just on time,
Baby you still look stunning,
Just like you left in the morning,
In a few hours I’ll have you moaning…
I have the evening all planned out in my mind,

Take you into my arms and into the bedroom,
Change you into your birth-suit and into the bathroom,
Soak you up in the bath, as I calculate my math
How many licks will it take to get you weak…
The wine gets you all excited, my prick gets all enticed
I sit you by the edge of the basin, dripping all wet of jasmine
You glitter off the candle light, water droplets leading me..
Leading me to your cunt…
1 lick, 2 licks….20, 30…lost count…
Nothing dripping no more, I take it in
Can’t waste it on the floor…you still wettin
More wine please.., just to get us at ease…

The floor ain’t cold no more.., you kneel with me..but face the wall
I’ll be gentle, you can be sure.., but don’t crawl away..or you’ll slip and fall
Last time was on the couch..and the other against the kitchen wall..
Tonight we’ll be on the bathroom floor,

To be cont…[tired thumbs] :-) ....SPICE.erotics

T’was…T’is….T’will be by SPICE

Where did we go wrong,
When did it change from,
Tears of happiness to,
Tears of pain?..true!

My love,
Doubt abodes in your eyes.
That look,
Uncertainty exudes from your gaze.

Ours was a committal love in vain,
Again we hide behind the covers of blame,
It’s a shame really,
Fear has engulfed us clearly.

Shamed by lust,
How much is too much to yield?
Shunned by love,
How soon is too soon to surrender?

Hurt is creeping up on us,
Plus we’re not the first,
Neither are we the last,
T’was…T’is….T’will be!

How do I say goodbye,
Make it sound like I still care?
I can’t make it count,
Sorry never seemed so hesitant.

Perfection was our seduction,
Forever, our endeavor.
Love we thought to be enough,
Uncertainty was our hidden reality,
Separation is now our realization.

Spice.scripts2010©

..heart sway by SPICE

feels different, takes me on the ascent
feels so new, us..me and you
feels like i'm suffocating..,
in the thoughts i'm thinking.

i don’t go a day,
without a 'hi' to say.
it costs a part of me, a tear or two,
when you don't miss me too..
it breaks my heart,like a pot of clay.

i apologize, i won't hold back,
i realize, that you're still hurting,
i compromise, our new friendship,
it's unwise, to hurry to fill this crack,
time flies, and this is my heart,
a longing in my eyes, feel it on my lip.

i won’t try to understand the intrigue,
i’ll learn to embrace it..accomodate it,
the chaos in my mind,the fear of falling for you.

i tell myself not to suffocate, not to over relate
my persistent thoughts still lead to you.
i brace myself for these walls i have to break,
to survive this journey i feel not ready for.

i’ve been in this coma so long,
no longer know how love used to feel like,
that, almost pulled me under,
that, almost made me, not feel again....

spice.scripts2010

SP [Sawyer Paul SPice] by LILA WRITE

You SPark some SPur when you SPeak
i SPy at your SParkling eyes and getall SPasmodic
You got the sugar n SPice thing...goin on

SPecial n designated, yes you are
within the scope of love,
you SPruce up emotions with no err
You got the sugar and SPice thing..

You'v got me SPell-bound
..and my SPirits suprised at this sharp,
great chap...i found
It would be sappy to say we got no scrap
ours is no SPecimen, we SPew our
resentments then drop the crap
we got the sugar n SPice in it

SPot on, i have a yen for your SPoken word
and when your SPort is on, i don't make it hard- for you
I admire your SPunk, gives me true grit*
desire for 'em SPank, that's a core treat

I will SPurn from all SPeculation
You separate one from all with great finesse- beamin
sophistication

You got tha sugar and SPice..
and it's making me a mental case!


SPice.appreciation2010

Maroon 5 - Nothing Lasts Forever

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
I Just don't know

If you don't know, Then you can't care
And you show up,But you're not there
But I'm waiting,And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday,
With every worthless word we get more far away,
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay,
But nothing lasts forever, just be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way.

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains,Nothing lasts forever.

maroon 5_nothing lasts forever

it's like that by RUN DMC

It's Like That - Run DMC

People coming, people going, people born to die
Don't ask me, because I don't know why
But it's like that, and that's the way it is

People in the world try to make ends meet
You try to ride car, train, bus, or feet
I said you got to work hard to want to compete
It's like that, and that's the way it is

Money is the key to end all your woes
Your ups and your downs, your highs and your lows
Won't you tell me last time that love bought you clothes?
It's like that, and that's the way it is

 Bills fly higher every day
We receive much lower pay
I'd rather stay young, go out and play
It's like that, and that's the way it is

 War's going on across the sea
Street soldiers killing the elderly
What ever happened to unity?
It's like that, and that that's the way it is

Disillusion is the word
That's used by me when I'm not heard
I just go through life with my glasses blurred
It's like that, and that's the way it is

You can see a lot in this lifespan
Like a bum eating out of a garbage can
You notice one time he was your man
It's like that (what?) and that's the way it is

You should've gone to school, you could've learned a trade
But you laid in bed where the bums have laid
Now all the time you're crying that you're underpaid
It's like that (what?) and that's the way it is

 One thing I know is that life is short
So listen up homeboy, give this a thought
The next time someone's teaching why don't you get taught?
It's like that (what?) and that's the way it is

 If you really think about it times aren't that bad
The one that stretches for success will make you glad
Stop playing and start praying, you won't be sad
It's like that (what?) and that's the way it is

 When you feel you fail sometimes it hurts
For a meaning in life is why you search
Take the boys on the train, drive to school on the church
It's like that, and that's the way it is

Here's another point in life you should not miss
Do not be a fool who's prejudice
Because we're all written down on the same list
It's like that (what?) and that's the way it is
You know it's like that, and that's the way it is
Because it's like that, and that's the way it is

...afraid by SPICE

not because i am, that you are
not because you are, that i am
we simply are, cause we feel.

cant ignore, still can't be sure
come to the fore, out of your closure
loneliness grips as cold in equal measure
nudeness of thoughts out on exposure

warm me with your kind words
i want you...to be with you, to hold you
i want to do this right..i'm not sure how
warn me that love sometimes hurts
i wish love didn't have to hurt sometimes
i wished that it could last forever
forever never came...love never lasted

i'm afraid..afraid to wish again
believe again, love or feel again
teach me, show me how to love you
hold me, take my hand and guide me
tell me it's going to be okay,
stay with me...in case its not okay..

spice.scripts 2010 (c)

don't let go by SPICE

i didn't give up on you
rather you gave up on me
i didn't say goodbye
rather you walked away
when it was just you me
when all that mattered was us
when everything existed cause we did
then i knew it would come to this

i seem to tell you no, when i really mean yes
cautious not to fall again, feel again...heal again
sorry that i can't open up..or rather i choose not to
a cycle that keeps coming back
a cycle that i've known to familiar
do things really change...does it stop feeling strange
i look for answers..i search for the missing puzzle pieces

can't pull it all together, feel like a fool altogether
when you pull closer..i pull farther and farther
can you see my dilemma, are you that one to see it all..
the pain I've been through, the un-answered questions
the missing pieces of my heart..,can you see it all

you have let me stay in my cold world..dark and lost
hoping is all i do..that maybe you're the one to stay
tell me it's going to be okay..even if it wont
will you believe with me...or will you up and leave me?
it's hard enough that you pulled close,
but this time i pulled closer, will you now pull away..
farther and farther?

Deuces Rmx ft. Spice [the missing verse]

The new girl that I’m wit,
She treats me right
You getting fake n old with ol this blame shit
You’re yesterday’s paper, torn page sheet!
‘…I’m saying Bye Bye…’ I’m calling this Deuces,
I’m the only one, no many spices
Girl you’ll find no other in this species
Know me as the Sapien ripping your heart in slices
You hurt me girl, I was your boo
I loved you girl, so I’ll hurt you too
Shoo, flap away like a shamed bird,
You plucked my feathers n put me down bad,
Now see how I dig up your dirt!
I’m off to a new start, new love and fulfilling trust
Call me Spice; I’m always up bringing a new taste
You should see her, still chaste…after the first night
When you gave it up so easily…your first night,
Didn’t you think it would also end up so easily…yeah that’s right!
I bet you didn’t see this coming on,
‘Should’ve known who was cheating too’...Rayvon
Save your useless pride, move on…
Deuces!

hearty smile by SPICE

i'm nicest to you in poetry,
the stories i create for us
that we float along in.
daydreams, nightdreams, all dreams
we can share together.
playing, fighting, laughing to every joke we know.
having each other to enjoy the days with.
the sun kissing the skin we pressed together,
in the cuddle on the couch,
the night of star watching,
sharing secrets,
and movie watching.
it's as simple as this:
miss wasting away my days with you...

...i know by SPICE

she's silent..serene...sleeping like a queen,
i watch her lying there, intent and keen,
still resembling the beauty when she was nineteen,
curves flowing gracefully in her silky green.

in her sleep,in her own mystic world..buoyant
enchanted in her fantasies..curving a smile upon her lips
panting in rhythmic motion..caressing the air into her lungs
and i cant help my heart express in writing, in tongue

used to be my lover...now my friend, my mate
used to behold her beautiful...now she's angelic, in trait
used to adore her sparkle...she still shines my evening  light

as i lie next to her..my arm around her,feel of soft skin
as i watch her sleep..as she cuddles into my hold, my nerves spin
the feel of my fingers on her lips..she lets out an innocent grin
did i her reach to her in her dreams, did she see me in her dreams?

she's peaceful, and that gives me joy
she's happy, that warms my heart
she's beautiful, that makes me appreciate her
she's in love, that gives me reason feel alive
she's lying next to me....i know it's going to be a good night.

spice.scripts2010

Is it by SPICE

Kissing you...i'm missing you
touching you...and tickling you too
holding you...cuddling you close to me
where it was just the two of us

your tender lips on mine
sparkle in your eyes that shines
it's been a while we shared such a time
whenever i'm with you it all feels fine

can't believe we're here again
cuddling, smiling, trying to forget the pain..
Sorry in you i left a permanent stain
your love was pure..and i took it for a game

no amount of apologies can merit your hurt,
had my chance,my time, to love you right
but i was too selfish and blind to see it
will i be able to make it, tonight.

Spice.scripts2010

my loss by SPICE

once a settler of your heart
once a peddler of your hurt

once the source of your happiness
once the scorch of your sadness

did my best to push you away
hid my taste to spit you away

deep inside of me, i needed you
your love..that's all i needed
only your love can make me whole.

my life I've lived gray in denial
my lies I've told to stay in survival
my eyes I've closed to shy away in a spiral

shy away from what i need most
stay away from the person who loves me most
preying on passing pleasures molded in lust
spraying time and emotions that wont last

all is over now...here i am
deep in my thoughts searching, for calm
all is over now...here i come
deep in my soul...i've brewed a storm

i dont deserve your love,
i should've let go of all i have,
to have you with me in my life,

i've been a fool,
i've been so cruel,
used you as a tool,
i'm paying for all that in full.

what will it take...to feel real love again.

spice.scripts 2010

only you by SPICE

when was the last time,
you said you love me.
i could part with my last dime,
just to hear it one more time.

am i asking for too much,
my thoughts had to hatch,
it's been all i do of late,
till i hear you say it...i'll wait.

then you finally say it,
wow! i so felt it
do that more often,
i'm much happier when you do it.

i love you too
i love you boo
i love no two
I LOVE ONLY YOU!!

signed; lyricist
spice.scripts2010

save me by SPICE

i'm breaking down inside,
i'm melting down under the pain,
like sand in the wind...my hope is trickling away,
feeling dejected and rejected,
nothing left to feel good about,
fill me up...i'm empty.

Where did we lose 'us'?
sucking the life out of each other,
i'm down to my last cup,
desperately holding on to us,
take a close look at me,
look beyond the tears i cry,
listen beyond the sound of my cries at night,
feel beyond your heart,
that's where i lie...
broken,beaten,tortured..save me.

Until you know how it feels,
loving someone more than you love yourself,
until you sacrifice your happiness,
just to show love for another unconditionally,
until you hurt when you don't get that love back,
when you don't perceive it coming from me,
...that is where i am,
it's how i feel,
thats where i am,
till i hear you calling out for me,
till you come looking for me,
just the way i picture it...in my dreams.

spice.scripts2010

believe again by SPICE

Till I lie breathless by your side,
I will love you only.
I wish I could give the world to you,
The awesomeness of the mountains,
The beauty of flower gardens,
The depth of my love as deep as the oceans,
The serenity as gentle of rivers downstream,
The excitement of waves and raging water falls,
The expanse of the skies is what you are to me.
I pick each star as a reason to why I love you,
Let my love light up the night sky for you,
You give the sun reason to rise each morning,
My heart to glow and for my smile to reflect..,
Each moment you’re away from me,
Is each moment I’m away from me
My angel, cover me under your wings of love
Shine thine glory to this lonely heart,
Wake me from this nightmare,
And bring back the joys of love to me.

Spice.scripts2010

harboured me by SPICE

not that i knew how
not that you know how
a shot through the heart
a spot that i got hurt..

note that you came
came to claim my shame
fate brought you to me
to me, my heart to heal

my angel you are
my guide like the north star
though you are far
you, have healed my scar

love eluded my being
had nowhere to begin
had no one i was seeing
love brought me you, my queen.

i'll soon embrace you, with the same love
same affection, ..you'll have enough
my heart beats for you...no bluff
a kinda love, that you'll be proud of.
i love you

signed: lyricist
spice.scripts 2010

spring back... [rebound love] | spice

thought losing you would destroy me
thought letting you go would consume me
thought you were that one to complete me
....i was right
i'm utterly ruined without you in my life
i'm recurrently consumed by lies all my life
i'm imperfect without a girl like you in my life

didn't i love you enough,
or is love never enough?

i didn't want to be a shoulder you only cry on,
my shoulder was for you to also hold on.
you let go and went back to him,
you apologized and left me for him.
he made you shed your tears enough times,
you made him feed off your fears enough times.

me and you,
those days now feel like a mistake..
a bitter pill i can't take,
wish you knew how it all feels like,
it felt real, never crossed me to be fake..
being a spring back for you is a torturing heartache,
that, i have to live with....

spice.scripts2010

love me till eternity!!! / tiara ft. spice

U entered my life and changed it for good.
my every feeling for u is true.
No other place i'd rather be...
than be in your arms...
for that love and comfort that i find with YOU.

While others wear deceiving masks...
its only your sweet face that i see.
if i was only yours and u were mine..
so i pray to thee.

Torture to me...
is what this distance is like.
So be it to the lord is say...
'but keep me for her
in another life!!
If so shall I die today!!

U r what i want and desire..
but not always happens what we wish for...
blinded by your love...i even
dont take time to see...if i deserve u or not!!

If i only had the choice to be with you...
i'd pleased to ask ...
for all the love u could give me...
and if that love was to be grow bigger for me everyday...
We shall live for eternity!!!!

phoenix love | spice

can't lie to myself that you're lonely,
just cause we're together no more,
you're beautiful in everyway,pretty and lovely,
the world of love is big for you to explore.

men as bees hover around you as honey,
offering you love at heart, and in money,
i bet your life is all rossy and sunny,
you'll be offending the heavens for you to be lonely.

in your new busy world, do i still exist?
do you think of me...even if your thoughts insist?
my pen in hand, i'm seated here on this seat..,
writing a poem about you..in me you exist.

why, why did you abandon us in an instance?
you just had to have a little patience..,
was it cause my love didn't seem deep enough?
or my pocket indeed wasn't deep enough?

i can't lie to myself that you miss me,
but i can be sure that, not only do i miss you..,
i still love you.

this love i feel for you, will bring you back.

spice.scripts2010

waiting for you | spice

thought my tears would make you stay,
you turned your back on me and left anyway.
these tears that i shed you see..
all the mean words that you said to me..
and the lies that you fed to me,

i let it all go
cause now i can show
how much i need you so

my feelings haven't changed
i just feel a little short-changed
if this makes you see
that i still love you,
and i want you to be with me..,
then i hope you'll love me too.

spice.scripts2010

missing you / spice

i think of you tonight,
you're the reason i write,
you're the reason for my delight,
as my thoughts bring you in sight.

distant love growing near,
instant sparks you ignite dear,
brilliant display of a lighted chandelier,
reminiscent of my love so sincere.

my inspiration, i fetch from your pool,
my admiration, in my heart you rule,
my seduction, i drink desire from your pool,
my addiction, i am a junky of your love capsule.

baby, though you're away from me
i thought maybe, you should know this from me
see lately, nothing else around moves me,
plant this love tree, come grow and age with me.

i'm happy with you, i'm happy like this
i feel brand new, i feel my inner peace
as the skies stay blue, you're the one thing i miss
our love stays true, and forever it foresees.


signed: lyricist

spice.scripts2010

never was, now is > spice

i get lost in my own world
shut out all else, alone
say nothing, think of everything
listen to my thoughts
at times they speak,
at times they're silent,
just like i am, silent.

is this how love wants it,
how long will we be silent,
when is this ending,
our love is still pending,
pride has encroached us,
this tide will drown us..,
silence lives among the dead,
has our love died?

breathe life into this heart,
hearken unto my soul's plight,
dreams haunt me in the night,
memories of the pain i caused you,
i bleed from regrett, i'm sorry..

forgive me if you might,
surpress the hatred...,the hurt,
free me..free you...free us.

deserving nothing from you,
i never did deserve anything,
if i never realised i needed you,
this moment you hold my life,
if this slightly sounds as to be untrue,
this is what i deserve out of life.

here i am.., alone, broken
here we are..,forgone, forsaken
hear my plea.., awaken
i killed us, but i'm still dying,
in this wilderness..i created.

spice.scripts2010(c)

feeling real | spice

this is me, this' how i feel,
this' for you to see, this is real
feeling the reality. reality feels like this,
you, me and this...this is what we have.

you're far from my thirsting sight,
but bound in my fighting heart..,
in my mind you flourish, the reality i see..
my thoughts you nourish, the intensity you free.

fondness grows with every passing second,
when will i be able to hold your hand?
i see you in all i exist in, feel you in my veins
every little thing pleasant is you,
every feeling of fantasy you make it true.

heir of my heart, queen of my being..,
i've offered you my all..all that is me..,
back when i took the fall, assuredly you held me..
..now this is me, and this' how i feel..

..this is for you to see, this is real
feeling the reality..
reality feels like this,
you, me and love...this is what we have.

signed lyricist
spice.scripts2010©

defiled statutes | spice

scared of the arms that nurtured me,raised me,
scared they'll strangle me, let go of me..
not a wrap,a fold of embracing me..

once her glorious son,
now reflecting consequences of his inglorious fun..
the world opens it's doors...like it always has.
to take me in,
i walk in...and eat from the same table..
feeling like garbage,

i find solace in the open cold streets,
a beast living among beasts..

mama taught me to live righteously,
taught me no one will make these choices for me,
im now lost..deluded...blinded...
living in regrett,

destiny...
how twas meant to be,
last shot at life...disgraceful..pitiful...
away from mama..

no longer aworthy child of my mother...
now reborn in the world...that's where i belong.

spice.reflections2010

aged tears > spice

mama why are you crying
son your brother is dying
mama please we should keep praying
nothing more we can do, let's keep trying

mama, i hate seeing you like this
it's never been the same since papa laid in eternal peace,
we've been living like mice eating rotten cheese,
some day we'll find hapinness, God will hand us the keys.

life has it's claws on us, this is our share,
better days are across the plains, only faith will take us there,
i'm not turning my back on us, even when i'll grow gray hair,
you and him are all that i have...and only prayer.

your eldest son is stressed, my big brother,
dad's passing has been hard on him..we should bother,
his life is ours, let's not give up..please mother!
and there's something else mom..i'll soon be a father...
...,the girl i've been seeing is pregnant.

spice.reflections2010

harboured me > spice

not that i knew how
not that you know how
a shot through the heart
a spot that i got hurt..

note that you came
came to claim my shame
fate brought you to me
to me, my heart to heal

my angel you are
my guide like the north star
though you are far
you, have healed my scar

love eluded my being
had nowhere to begin
had no one i was seeing
love brought me you, my queen.

i'll soon embrace you, with the same love
same affection, ..you'll have enough
my heart beats for you...no bluff
a kinda love, that you'll be proud of.
i love you

signed: lyricist

spice.scripts 2010

...i miss you > spice

cool morning breeze across my face,
thoughts breezing across my mind in a race,
you and i existing in our own space,
you're far away,wishing that wasn't the case.
sometimes it gets so lonely,
cause my heart and mind can't seem to agree,
close to my heart, my eyes don't see..
...your smile, your face...my mind is in plea.
when are you coming to me,
i start my mornings tihnking of thee,
it's hard at times, thinking when it'll be,
that you're going to be here with me.
my thoughts on this paper, you they emit...
they create your image on it,
in my mind you solely exist.
i miss you so bad.., that i admit.
know that my thoughts are with you,
it's like every song i hear it's about you,
you live in me through and through,
my life right now is all about you...
i miss you.

signed:lyricist

spice.scripts2010

in my silence[i search for serenity] > spice

from a bee comes honey,
and it stings too..funny.
it's all been a lie, your words
so you say...it hurts.
you gave me the highest of moments,
the greatest of feelings,
you made me almost believe in love again,
i was ready to give up all for you...you to gain
you built emotions in me,real..couldn't feign.
sorry that i felt it more than you did,
but it happens...yours you hid.
sometimes the things we need to say,we don't.
things we need to do, we do not...we just don't.
truth is i love you, without effort,
once my source of comfort,
now you're like a bed of thorns,
a shoulder sprayed with pepper,
an oasis that is always a mirage,
how did we get here so fast,
is that how weak our bond was,
i don't want that to be our truth.
or believe it to be..no it can't.
it's a time like this that i don't know what to do,
what to say, what to write...
in your silence you know what you thinking,
in my silence i wonder where i'm headed,
i can't force this,
so i lay back...and let what brought us here,
take us to the next point..
in my silence...i'm thinking of you,
in my silence...i'm almost cutting loose,
i'm not hurting, i'm not crying
just lost in my thoughts
in my own world..
where peace is what matters most to me,
my peace of mind.

spice.reflections 2010

at it again > spice

love is at it again!
or is it love?
mis-trust is at it again!
that could be it.
but the joke isn't on me
no it's not.
or is it?
it don't hurt
atleast not like it used to..
my heart's been all along broken
yeah that's definitely it.

i would really want to say i'm sorry
but with my heart, it's all a different story
cause i'm not
i need love...just like you need it

show me what i need to see
tell me what i need to hear
cause my heart speaks for me
it's all i listen to...

love is playing tricks on me
not this time...
i won't be put under..
i got the ace.


spice.scripts 2010

If Your Walls Could Speak
If your walls could speak,
Would they talk about us
And the things that we’ve done,
As silent they stood witness?

Would they tell of how i anxiously turned you to face them,
Impatiently shoving you against them,
As soon as you stepped through my door…
my left hand holding your neck firmly,
The right dropping your defenses to your ankles,
Fingers exploring realms,
Soaking in delight?

Would they express how i made you squirm,
And burn with an uncontrollable desire;
How you moaned for me to go deep inside,
your swelling lips begging to be hushed?

Would they disclose how i forced you to the floor,
Down on all fours,
While you whimpered and writhed,
Like a dog, begging for more?

And tell how you pleaded with me,
To drive in from behind,
As they watched without a sound,
Us imitating two animals in a mating ritual?

Would they voice how i raised you from the ground,
Thighs straddling my waist,
As i slipped inside,
legs wrapped around,
For a ride to my bedroom,
Leaving them to wonder what came next?

if only your walls could speak, they would tell..
how sparks flew that night.

spice.adaptations



a story about the baby diamond....

"...i stared into her beautiful sparkly eyes..
ou eyes in silent conversation...
i brushed her hair out of her face, and back to her ear...
..and as i slid my palm down her soft slender cheeks,
she held it...and presses it agaisnt her cheek...
..i leaned towards her,
i could see her heart beat fast,
her beautiful eyes gave her away,
she leaned towards me..,
and when our eyes closed..., ..our lips met!
twas silky ..smooth, soft...warm..sensousand passionate,
it hit our whole bodies like a charge rush
we both felt our emotions at once,
indescribable
as we pulled away, she looked into my eyes
...i'm all shy...
then i look into hers..
..she's all shy..
we smiled..realising that,..
..that was our first kiss...and it wasn't going to be our last..."



spice.archives2009

thrice a dweller of my heart | spice

there's always a time, that i spare you a thought...once a dweller of my heart,once the person i couldn't live without. Every moment happened so i could acknowledge you, everything i did...i did for you. None else represented beauty in the way you did...none else would make my knees buckle and none else knew this but me.

your presence still lingers in my heart, some things i do still remind me of you. You were such a big part of what made me feel alive. Your kind words...your gentle touch...your glowing smile...your lovely eyes...so much in you made me feel so lucky to have you.

i remember the first time we met, you looked amazing..i was so sure you'll live in my future golden days..,i never felt so inlove..i was lost in you, body and soul.there's nothing more i wanted out of life than to have you by my side,happy.

but not all things that start well, end well. I can't accept that we reached the end of the road...of all you made me feel..i still feel it. Hoping that someday you'll come back...because i believe in love. and this love i feel..is not meant for anyone else..my heart won't take no other, my eyes don't see any other...and my body won't embrace any other, any other but you. ..come back to me.

spice.scripts2010

open up,take me in | spice

my lips upon thy breasts,
on a silent serene night,
my breathe gently caressing your chest,
sparks fly in a fiery contest...

half closed eyes,
partly parted thighs,
muffled sweet cries,
acknowledging sighs,
i take you into unknown highs.

sweet scent of your skin,
intoxicating, my own personal brand of heroine,
take me in, lock me therein...

hold him,
rub him up and down..,
kiss him,
wrap your warm tongue around him, him you crown..,
fill him,
with moist and soft flesh..,
wrap him,
with your lips to seal...he'll relish.
get him firm enough to your liking...

your eyes are my ultimate sin,
inside your thighs...a place i've never been,
your beautiful fruit of desire..my eyes haven't seen,
longing for you to tour me within,
to the depth of your loin...

you've lit a fire inside of me,
unquenched by mere acts,
burn it out to nothingness,
through the ultimate act...

...open up, and take me in.

spice.scripts2010©

what for? | spice

as an artist paints pictures...
he puts his thoughts into shapes and figures.

he get's admirers for his work and critics too.some show it..some hide..
but it remains,the canvas has got images in it that'll forever be the artist's pride.

...the poems i write, i love them no matter what...
for they're my paintings..my expressions. ..my art.

...but what for?

..each word is a stroke.. | spice

your stories inspire me, i talk to some of you and i get inspired by your love stories, your strengths in overcoming heartache...i'm inspired by some of your weaknesses...your desires.

i draw inspiration from some of your works too for those who write, but most of all...before i get inspired..it's cause i identify with a circumstance. so with every poem i write, there's a story of my life in it...each and every one of them...love,joy,pain,sex,family,friends,enemies,past..present and events expected...they all constitue a twisted tale of my life.

i don't write to one day become a renowned writer or poet, i write cause i want to express myself. i don't see y'all faces when you reading this...actually i write cause i don't care what people might think...this is me,this is what i go through...feel me? i'm human just like you. ...and it's great comfort to see all your comments appreciating art and emotion. ..then i'm reminded, i'm an artist. ..my brush is my pen, my words are the paint. ..each word is a stroke.

you keep me alive.. | spice

tonight i'm seated on my bed, trying to write another of my poems, but nothing is in my head tonight. ..probably cause i had a rough day today. but a friend made it all the better at the end of it. ..xoxo

anyway, i have no poem tonight... over my time in facebook writing notes in form of poems it's been 200+ poems.

i couldn't have gotten the energy to write all those poems without the people who read them and that's you reading this now. my work may have touched you one way or another...made you have a perception of me...made you like me or despise me...fact is it's made you feel something. ...i'm grateful either way that you could get the time to read through.

some started with me, left me on the way...the far they took me i'm grateful...some have stuck with me through my journey in writing...i'm so so grateful...i don't take that for granted. other's are silent readers, to them too i'm grateful...

some of you have asked what inspires me? ...what really inspires me? ...

come to me | spice

i'm weak,
i'm sick,
for your love.

i'm lonely,
come hold me,
you're my comfort.

thousand miles between us,
a longing it brings us,.

say you love me,
feed my heart with assurance,
nothing aches me as much as your silence.

our path is one,
our heart is one,
our love is one.

what i feel,
feels so real,

captor of my heart,
it pains that we're apart,
i need your hold...
i need your words..
i need your company..
just to be here with me.

hurry up and come to me
i miss you

signed lyricist
spice.scripts2010 ©l

people lie,lust love [in bed they lie,love lost] | spice

i'll act as a fool,
be used as a tool,
play by your rules,
go through the abuse.

or let it go,
cut you loose,
take a fall..
again i may rise...new.

no rhyming poem,
freshly cut roses,
and rich dark chocolates,
will bring me back...blind me.

pure true love, a gem
few find it, happiness
masked love..lies, sadness
like a thorn in your eye..
pain...emotional breakdown

people lie,
lust love,
in bed they lie,
love lost.
cunning, sly
games they play
a smile, they laugh
deceit, they potray...
the innocent stained
repeated hurt
they harbour love no more
monsters created
they set out for revenge
for they once loved
but got betrayed

victims of the love game
winners cast the lot
losers left in heart ache
innocents again become vulnerable
..and now they're the hunted...
in the cycle of love...heart break.

spice.scripts2010©

your eyes, brown eyes | spice

brown eyes,
growing fires.

like a diamond shining through honey,
your pupils shine sweetness to me,
i behold your beauty...
couple that with your flowing hair,
a warm smile..in all a graceful flair..
careful to admire, i don't stare.

your words nourish my longing, ..my yearning.
insatiable i am to your attention,
craving your recognition,
but these remain to be my thoughts in discretion.

in your eyes i see,
the feeling of admiration..
far past the beauty you are..
i see the silhoute,
of a distant promising love.

...i look into your eyes looking into mine,
what i feel is what you feel,
what i need is what you need,
you don't say you want me..but your eyes tell the tale.

in your eyes i see uncertainties unfolding,
i see mysteries forming,
i see you longing...

our paths meet,
our hearts need,
our eyes speak...

brown eyes,
showing desires.

spice.scripts2010 ©

...rise up in me | spice

i don't wanna sleep tonight,
show up in my dreams you might,
you faded from my sight,
just when everything started feeling so right,
you showed no care,
all i got now is a blank stare,
trying to find your smile in the air,
trying to feel your hold through the pillow,
memories are being carried out the window..
trying to feel your kiss on my lips,
trying to seal my heart as it leaks..
where are you?
is someone else loving you?
should i wait for you?
..just so you see my love is true?

spice.scripts 2010©

another shot at love | spice

we'r standin cloz
wana kiss u but im scared it'l lead 2 s'thing mo
i move my face closer 2urs...so close that we'r breathin the same air
mine in2 urs, urs in2 mine..
so close that i brush my lips against urs
..and u part ur lips ready 2join wit mine
i can feel u lightly gasping 4breath
..then u firmly hold my neck n pull me closer..u cant wait no mo
our lips interlock..soft n tender..silky n smooth
juices start flowin,tongues dancin,desires mountin
i start to run my hands gently on ur back
u jerk ur breasts hard against my chest
suckin my lips..wriggling in my hold
...but im thinkin we shouldnt b doin this
so many thoughts runnin thru my mind..should i stop..should i go on
its started,can i stop it...wil u stop it
i pul out..n u look puzzld
i look in2 ur eyes...i aint sure what im seeing
..hurt, love, a yearning 2b appreciated, 2b touched..held
but again i see uncertainty..emptiness
i look in2 ur eyes mo n im left speechless..they r beautiful
n i think 2myslf
u shud b luvd..

spice.scripts 2010©
thanks 2eve.m

...don't lie about love[hearts do break] | spice

the last time i was with you
you seemed so ready to love
said you've been hurting
said you've been waiting


i offered my heart to you...my mind and body too
tried to show you how love's supposed to be...you couldn't see
why didn't you stop me
when i said i love you...why didn't you stop me

it's so easy to wanna hate you now,
truth is i still love you...
though you decide to leave with an early bow,
what i feel is what i hold to be true..

..true..
that i'm hurt
that i'm broken
that i feel used

you deceived my will to love
poked the wound that's been sore for so long,
was afraid to love again...
then you came along...
when you left, love hurt me a second time..

...truth is...
i wanna hate love
i wanna bury my past
i wanna be strong from this..

the time we had was amazing
your time with me i take as a blessing
wherever you end up,
whoever you meet,
whatever you do,
don't lie about your love.

spice.scripts 2010©

you're all tagged [from me to you] | spice

life has dealt me alot ever since i came into existence
it has brought me many good and bad encounters
it has brought me wonderful amazing people
...people who have carved out memories in me
...memories of joy, excitement, adventure, intense love and acceptance
i would like to remember the good moments...,
..but without bad moments, i couldn't really realise the joys of life

life's journey brought me your way
our paths were mapped out long before the universe's existence
life has engraved your picture in my heart
recorded our encounters in my mind
and forever i hope it will be
...so to all you my friends who take their time with me,
i'm grateful i came to know you..
...if ever i'm taken from your presence,
know that y'all be a sweet memory to me,
you give me love...and i give back the same.
..what i do is cause i love it, and cause you love it too.
thank you.

spice.appreciation

a thirst quenched ...but a hunger awakened | spice

thinking of having you in the shower,
droplets flowing down your skin to parts lower,
baby you consume me with so much power,
my urge burns like an animal...ready to devour.

Tender feel of our skin, we battle our resistance,
eyes meet briefly, and beg for this one chance,
taste of your skin, in between my lips,
our bodies demand more...as our conscious splits...

a cloud of longing hovers above me,
your curves sail me through waves of desire,
then you climb on top of me..calm and easily..,
and lower yourself with gasps...slow and gently,
warmed tongues meet in the midst...,
...drawing breath from deep inside of me..
a moan breaks the kiss...for another look in the eyes.

our slow rhythm gives way,
to urgent and demanding thrusts of passion,
you burst your petals open, to flow with nectar.,
i erupt with a fountain of white...
i let your weight crush over me...as sweat kisses sweat.

..a thirst quenched,
..but a hunger awakened.


spice.scripts2010

a wish i hope true | spice

I'm wondering what might have been
if i never met you

i wouldn't know love hurts sometimes
i wouldn't know i'd hate for love

maybe it would've been different

i've heard of joyous romance
forever love spoken of, fairy tales
i believed in such, till you came along

you hurt me more times than you made me smile
i still wonder...

...what might have been,
if i never met you

i wouldn't know that sacrifice can be in vain
i wouldn't know i'd risk so much for this pain

maybe it could've been different

i've heard of enchanting love escapades
happily ever after heavenly matched companionships
i believed in such, till you came along...

how i wish, i never met you


spice.scripts2010

...still here | spice

ours is effortless love
..call it endless
ours is a story of the faithful
..call it joyful

baby,
you're my best friend,
stick with me to the end.
we've taken this dive together,
be my breath under water.

be my wings as we soar the sky,
i'm your comfort when life forces you to cry...

no distance will hinder my love,
what i feel can never be enough..,

it keeps flowing,my fountain of affection,
let it fill you, to a heightened satisfaction.

i'm here for you.


signed: lyricist
spice.scripts2010

...queen goddess | spice

you take form of a mythical greek goddess...but fragile and innocent
implore i to offer to you the ways of eros love
we make love, but love first made us.....

....the allure of passion fills us like sweet exotic scent,
we're drowned in emotions so seductive..so strong...
longings of sexual highs, oh the zeal of our erotic senses..,
heavy breathings, hastened heartbeats...anxious moments....

i'm hardpressed against you, tightly holding you close to me
feel my hardness against the tenderness of your bosom
feel your wetness against the softness of your thighs
arms around you, i get solace in the rest of your breasts

our enchantment has never been spoken of...my love
you rule the four corners to the reigns of my heart...my queen
beautiful you are.,a prize of the gods...my angel
we become one, in the union of our bodies...my lover

in this moment, forever will stand still...and wait
guide me to your honey pot, i desire to dip into your nectar
a stream of ecstasy flows through us.,as we join
skin upon thy skin, drown me in this moment
cage me in the deepest of your passion.,consume me

my love, my queen, my angel....my lover


signed: spice lyricist
spice.scripts2010

rainbow in the dessert | spice

I once valued and adored you, internalized your every word..gave you all the time you wanted
that didn't mean much to you, never appreciated me..took me for granted

i don't know where you are, not even what you do
at times i cannot remember far, anything to get me through

true..,we had our differences, the difference is.,we talked em out
we've now taken our distances, in this instance.,we've gone all out

i'm not writing cause i miss you.,i don't.
i'm not writing to plead with you.,i won't.

change,
pulls fear closest to heart than belief
doubt,
chains to the past, blocking the glare of tomorrow
you,
try to break me down into desperation
.....these three things,
i shall overcome.

your silence,
is no longer a worry to me
your existence,
live to see the person i've become
this instance,
i tell myself...i will be happy away from you

spice.scripts 2010

untitled | write, nelly, winnie, cheryl, ancient and spice

Laconically labelled a ladette
a trait you can't rate
great in humility, never to irate
for a soul mate, maybe the perfect figure eight...
he waits for that someone he can relate...to.
~ lila write

every moment i look into your eyes
i see the ultimate prize
i'm tired of saying goodbyes
so take me under your wings and rise...up into the skies
for you are my angel in disguise
~ Nelly Msupa

even though we took different ways
you the elevator, me the stair way...
we both desire better days
and just forget yesterday
i wish you well, it's not cliche
happiness and love for you i pray
~ Winnie Gichohi

cheryl
for real,
this is how i feel
i try to conceal
these feelings i easily reveal
..many promises i will fulfill,
if my lips, you can seal....with a kiss.
~ Cheryl Karsha

i sit in peace,
..as a loving thought.,
just like the breeze,
caressed my mind..answers i sought.

i will never cease,
knowing that i fought...
for our love to increase,
now i'm in your arms, never distraught.
~ Ancient Azhure

spice.freestylez 2010

...love me | spice

I've tried, really i have
but nothing seems right to you anymore

i have loved, really loved
but nothing seems right to do anymore

endless lines of thought tie me up
blameless i welcome thoughts of giving up

how do i spell my LOVE to you ... Y.O.U. A.R.E. M.E.
how do i break off this spell i have of you and me

i look up to the stars to show me the way
i look down at my scars to guide me on the way

i have my fears that crawl up on me
i have tears that have burnt my cheeks

it's not an easy road i travel
stones, thorns and heavy gravel
i'm scorched by the rays of hurt
i'm blinded by the dust of the past
my heart is aching
my heart is breaking
my heart is bleeding
my heart is needy
hear me, free me,
....love me.

spice.scripts2010

i'm cold as ice | spice

melt me away

i want to get lost in your embrace

consume me with your gaze

melt me away with your touch...insane

render me still

slow this moment and do everything right

touch me right, kiss me soft, build my desire

keep me close

till our energies run out in a fountain

let passion descend on us like rain

cause when i'm with you...

You melt away

spice.scripts 2010

this night... | spice

this night
wanna have you in my arms
holding you
touching you
feeling you
close to me

tonight
is my longest night
i miss you
i'm thinking of you
i dream of you
lying on my chest

wish you were here
we could watch the stars
we could kiss under the moon
we could listen to our favorite love songs
but you're away, i'm lonely.

baby,
you mean a whole lot to me
without you, the night is cold
i wanna be with you
only with you,
for then i'm happy

i kiss you good night in my mind
and imagine it real
this is how i feel
come heal
my aching heart.

spice.scripts2010

into the horizon | spice

I hate to pack,
It takes my thoughts back..,
I found the photo we took in the park;
You still have that look in your face...It’s stuck.

Oh, I also found the neck lace,
The one you gave me inscribed ‘lv u 4eva, can’t replace’
Forever came too soon; we’ve fallen out of grace

I’ll carry my bags, and walk on away
My face in my hands, disappointment...I convey
Wake me up when August ends, can’t help feeling this way

Find me in the lonely mansion, given no attention

Serenade my sadness with the sound of a heartbeat
Capture my spirit; bring me back to my feet
I’ve been hurt so many times, I accepted defeat

I’ve committed so many love crimes, that felt so right…so complete;
…Loved you too much to suffocate you…
…Knew you so well that I projected you…
…Missed you too much that you called me a clinger…
…Worried about you too much that you tagged me a nag.

Said you’d be better on your own…your heart I can’t call my own,
Said I should think of moving on…pack my bags and find my way on,
Said you can’t reflect the love I’d shone…I now head for the unknown,
It’s sad…but I’m glad…for the time we had.

Bye.

spice.scripts2010

bubbling under | spice

I try,
I try my best,
To be the greatest…to feel set apart

I try,
I try to act blind
To really not mind…the unvarying deride

I’m going up the stream, steamed..,
I budge against the dessert storms.
My vision etched on the ultimate accolade,
Moving to the lead with unrivaled grit,
Pressing to bite off the key allocate,
Shunning the bits thrown to me, I’m starving for success,
Longings unquenched by meager give outs..,
A fire burns inside me, tormenting my potential to the fore,
A purposeful endeavor to complement the pledge of the new sun..,
..the promise of tomorrow,
I cannot be judged against none, I can only be my own success.
I have lived my struggles, intoxicated by my anxieties,
Licked my own wounds.., it’s brought me to this point
…this is MY victory, MY harvesting..,
..MY success story.

spice.reflections2010

Moderncient Shakespeare ~ spice

She calls him her modern Shakespeare; He writes her poems, loving and Hearty.
Sentimental in each word, Love takes Shape; Harmonious rhymes elate her fantasies High.
Emotions form the pivot hook to Enchant; Words capture her intrigue, never to Waiver.
Reverently she adores him as a valuable jewel so Rare; Pure in his love, he holds her Prized.
Love beyond the physical that knows no Lust; Moulded by the gods of ancient Mystery.
Intimacy in her world epitomizes his Irresistibility; Beauty in his eyes, intense and Bewitching.
Captivated by the sensuality of his Charm; Damned she is if he harbors a scheme to Deceive.
Freed into new joy, her faith is Firm; Glowing with promise, certainly for love she is Gutsy.
Love’s arrow hits when expected Least; Embrace the imminent feelings and the looming gift of Eros.
He writes her poems, loving and hearty; She calls him…her Moderncient Shakespeare.

all rights reserved. spice.classics 2009

Have Me [*RATED*] | spice

HAVE ME

...tell me this,
how did it feel..

when i touched,
caressed... and kissed you,
when i whispered, nibbled... and gently licked at your ears,
flicked your nipples and sucked them with my warm moisty tongue.

...how did it feel

having my fingers run down your spine,
with the softest feel as of a feather, or better... silk clothe.
Do you miss some tongue on your clit,
slow..sensual movement... pure amazement.

...i want to know,

do you miss our intimacy... our spicy.. love making.
You and I, two lovers dying for a little passion, ..an innocent touch of seduction..
I kiss you senseless
...you suck me breathless...
feel my hardness
..against your thighs...the softness
..the smoothness
sweet sensual caress..
...of your skin.
our energies consumed, crazy passion... make me go weak.
have me in total submission... that i can't even speak.
Nothing inside us exists, but for the pleasure we posses.

do you miss it all,

remember how it felt,
taking you in my arms..all sweaty and dripping
remember how you danced to the tune of mouline rouge.
..it can't have been far too long,
twas a beautiful song... the perfect afrodisiac
my summer girl..
..miss.sunshine...
you light me up to a beam,
make me wanna let you have my cream,
and we can both drift off to dream...
...of how amazing it was...
just you and me..the perfect team.

spice.erotics 2010

eyes closed, i bow | spice

wash me clean
free me of sin
lead me on the right path
bring me to my true worth
Jesus..
my savior and Lord
died and rose to ease my load
His blood was the price
to redeem me from death's cunning eyes
so that..
upon His acceptance
i can be called to repentance
and have my deliverance.
amen..

spice.reflections2010

when i thought of you | spice

baby,
we haven't talked in a while,
what keeps you away..,
keeps me this way,
yearning and longing..
feeling ill when i'm really not.
you're my regular zing,
i need you here
let time spare us a moment,
so i can say i miss you
you assure me, that i'm still on your mind
this poem i write
to prove this moment existed
when i thought of you

spice.scripts2010