Absence

I'm watching this girl, dressed in red,

curvaceous and with pretty eyes, 

she sways to tune of the music, 

my thoughts are louder than the speakers, 

her hips.. Her smile... Her boobs... 

She's lost in the music, 

A world where the bass and treble rule, 

I'm staring at her and it's getting awkward. 

I'm looking at this girl, light skin with a full cleavage, 

she's effortlessly sexy. 

My heart races at her mutual gaze..

she's pretty. She's bored..so it seems, 

sip by sip I take her in, should I walk over to her? 

She has a man, but he ain't with her, 

he's on his phone...chatting, smiling, sucked in. 

I'm looking at this guy, he's talking to every girl, almost every girl.. 

He's on to something...someone, 

he has the best dance moves, he has a charming smile, 

the ladies seem to like him, he's not interested, he is just having fun. 

So I sit and stare, people are feeling something I'm not feeling, 

they seem happy..careless...living life, 

with so many people around me, 

the loud music and cheers, I feel alone..empty, 

missing something...someone, my gal. 

 

She has an effect on me, she has a hold on me, 

she is present in my heart though absent from my sight, 

I'm thinking of her smile, her calmness around me, 

her eyes, her peacefulness, life feels alive when I'm with her, 

nothing else matters, I miss her when she's away, 

I'm missing her now, she's the only temptation I give into, 

she's the only spring I drink from, 

she's the only light I bask in, 

when everything else doesn't matter...

she's the only one of significance,

I'm losing myself ..to gain her, 

I'm surrendering my path ..to join with hers, 

I'm blinding myself from everyone ..to see her, 

I'm numb to random emotions ..to marinate in hers, 

I'm silent to my doubts ..and hopeful to her wishes, 

wherever she is...she is with me, I'm with her...

she's my companion...my friend...my lover..

I LOVE YOU [I think] BY SpicePoetry

What if I can’t tell the difference..

Between space and distance


Love and affection, lust and attraction

Between loving you, and being in love with you

Do I love you, or is it just the feeling I love

See I have this one problem,


I gave up on love, and its not an excuse


Maybe I should’ve made it clear from the start


Before I led you into pouring out your heart

You see me through the veil of expectation


As I watch you glide through the air of anticipation


What could be more difficult at this moment,


Than to startle you from the calmness of  your dream

To stir a storm of disappointment, deception, hurt

Love never felt so right, and wrong at the same time


It a struggle of moving forward while being dragged

Taking one step ahead, and two back...


What if I got it wrong, and I cant go on


Made you feel like you belong,


I used to like listening to that song


The one that always made us feel like we’re one


I say I love you, I try so hard to believe it


You keep pouring out your love, and its never enough

Truth is, I’m unable to love you like you love me


In all that I can do to make you happy,


I am more into what I shouldn’t do to hurt you

These are the feelings I’m trying to figure out

Whether to learn to love you, or to run and leave you. 

[17.12.2015]

Smitten

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Crazy as it may seem, I like you,
Many things cross my mind
Many I’d rather not talk about
Before I come out, maybe I should wait
Though my mind is racing fast, thoughts of you
This time for me it’s different, somehow
There’s something about your eyes..your smile
Igniting my attraction towards you
Many times we talk light kindheartedly
The laughter and giggles,
A welcomed fresh breath of air
And this rather seems a good thing
Silence at times creeps in between us
A moment I get to think of you, miss you

A new promise, beautiful times call out
Sometimes i want to see you
But i dont know how to get to you
I find myself singing along to love songs
I’m even convinced the stars shine for me
When it all seemed like it didn’t matter
Now nothing else matters much, than talking to you

I long to see the smile you hide behind the phone when we chat
I imagine all these pleasant things about you
I see that need in your eyes, I have it too
I feel your kind nature, your sincerity in our conversations
But all this is just me; this is how I conceive it

If anything ever changes, for better or worse
Know this as my humble confession
A desire to acknowledge the feelings you provoke in me
Every time I hear, see or think of you
There’s a flame that is lighting up more and more inside of me..
If need be, that before it’s an inferno, allow me to kill it down…
For now it won’t burn as bad, it won’t hurt as much

In My Dreams

In My Dreams

What do you think i feel,
when i'm all alone wishing you were real?
Would you be mine?

If i told you i love you,
would you ever believe it to be true?
Say it back to me, if you will.

All i want is for this to feel real,
fantasy is a mirage in the horizon,
do you believe in make belief?

My diamond in a field of snow,
all i see is your bright sparkle,
why do you hide your face from my eyes?

How fast time flies,
how easy the truth feels like lies,
you will be mine some day!

For so long i have been waiting,
for a silhouette in the golden horizon,
in my dreams...we both exist, happily together.

Let me take you into my arms,
feel your breath against the hairs of my neck,
and i will be your protector, in a world made of dreams.

Love Me in a Haste

Love Me in a Haste

Love me when the storms are cool and calm
We only have today for tomorrow might never come
Block out the world and see me, it’ll do you no harm
Girl love me now before we lose the charm

This discerning moment could be our only chance
What if the music stops and we miss our dance
Let’s trust in the promise of love and lasting romance

These feelings can be daunting and memories haunting
Sieving through my past i've come to learn one thing
Whether It’s the few days that I have spent with you
Or the forever we yearn and hope for to be ours
I have come to accept that time runs out eventually
Please don’t make us wait for longer than we already have
I am here to stay, our story begins here

I embrace these feelings and I know that certainly
If I have you beside me, we can both travel this journey
Lay out your claim without doubt, for I am all yours

I saw you approaching through the misty fog clouding my eyes
A silhoutte of this magnificent form pacing towards me
The nearer you got to me the farther i was pulled away
I reached out my hand for you to hold but you just glanced at me
Could it be that fate shows me the one thing i really desire
but still keeps it away from me, near enough but far from me
could it be my portion?